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— How can he be so weak? What’s his condition? — gasped the mother‑in‑law. — He’s just drowsy. Nothing serious, a slight temperature, all’s fine, winter’s started. — It’s not just winter! It’s your job—bringing all that from the cash register home! How many times have I told you—change jobs?
How is he a bit under the weather? What condition is he in? gasped Margaret, Emmas motherinlaw. Hes sleeping. Its only a slight fever, nothing serious; the cold season has just begun.
Its not just the cold! Its your job that drags all that rubbish home from the shop! Ive told you a hundred times change your line of work!
Emma had dozed off when a loud bang shattered the silence someone had thrown open the front door. She rubbed her eyes, glanced at the clock, and saw it was only eight in the morning.
Oliver, love, is that you? she asked, listening for any other sounds in the flat.
There was no answer, only the creak of a bathroom door closing behind her.
She threw on a housecoat, slipped barefoot into the bathroom, and flung the door wide.
There, standing by the mirror, was Oliver, his lips stretched in a grin as he stuck out his tongue.
Emma, is it true that a person whos a bit under the weather ends up with a white tongue? he asked, halfjoking.
Youre the one whos ill? Emma replied sleepily.
Looks that way, Oliver said, touching his forehead worriedly. I need a thermometer. Where did we put it? Let me lie down. Theyve let me off work early. I think well have to call a doctor.
Emma fetched the glass thermometer. It read 37.2°C. The winter had indeed arrived, and Oliver lay down. A doctor arrived an hour later, issued a sick note, and left.
Emma rang her mother.
Could you pick Sam up from nursery? He cant go home Olivers not well.
Her mother, who lived alone and adored her grandson, was delighted.
Is Oliver seriously ill?
Nothing serious. The doctor gave him a sick note and some simple instructions; well just rest.
How are you holding up? her mother asked anxiously.
Im fine. Ive got a second shift at the shop tomorrow, so Ill ask Margaret to look after Oliver tonight. Itll be a full week of night shifts. Thanks, mum, well manage.
Emma thought about a light chicken broth soup. She needed to dash to the supermarket as well as the chemist, fetch some chicken thighs from the freezer, and buy carrots and potatoes.
At the pharmacy she collected everything required. At lunch she nudged her husband awake.
Oliver, get up and have some soup, Emma said, giving his shoulder a gentle shake.
Halfasleep, Oliver perched on the edge of the bed.
I feel a bit queasy! Could you bring the soup to the bedside? I cant make it to the kitchen.
Is it that bad? Alright, Ill bring it and you can check your temperature afterwards.
He ate, she measured again still 37.2°C. Emma gave him some tablets. Oliver turned his face to the wall and drifted back to sleep. Thank heavens.
Because Olivers sick pay covered his full wages, Emma worried about her own finances. The family was already juggling a mortgage and a small loan, so she couldnt afford to fall ill herself. She phoned Margaret.
Irene, Olivers a bit under the weather. Could you keep an eye on him this evening? We have a flood of customers later and I cant get through to him.
How is he? Whats his condition? Margaret blurted.
Hes sleeping. Just a mild fever, the cold has started.
Thats not just cold! Its your job that brings the shops rubbish home! How many times must I tell you to change work!
Irene, Im not weak! You yourself said Oliver could collapse at the drop of a hat when he was a child. The frost is coming, so I cant be bothered
Emma cut the conversation short. Margaret loved to exaggerate, and she could be at the door with a sack of herbal teas within the hour. Let her look after him, Emma thought, and Ill get ready for my shift.
True enough, Margaret arrived with a basket stuffed with various tinctures and a dry shirt for the boy, muttering that a damp shirt would only make him worse.
Look at him, lying there in a wet shirt, getting even sicker. How could you miss that? she scolded.
He was already asleep, Irene. What could I have done? Emma retorted.
Emma headed to work. A few hours later she felt a wave of weakness herself. Im weak too! she thought, but she couldnt show it; she had to finish her shift. That evening her temperature rose higher than Olivers. She wanted to complain to him, but he was preoccupied with his own misery.
Im shivering and dizzy. Mum gave me tea with raspberry and honey; it helped a bit, but by nightfall Im still lousy. What should I take?
Youre not the only one feeling off
Then take something yourself, Oliver said, glancing again at his whitetongued reflection in the mirror. Its still white, after all.
Emma knew she couldnt let herself get sick, not with the loans looming. She kept quiet, took the tablets, and trudged to work each day. The bills wouldnt disappear on their own.
All week Oliver wallowed in his selfpity, insisting he felt terrible even though the thermometer stubbornly stayed at 37°C. Margarets visits grew more frequent, her herbal brews and poultices piling up. Emma dreaded seeing her at home; the sight of her fussing made her feel even more drained.
Oliver barely noticed anything else he dozed in front of the television, then on his phone. When Emma returned each night, she checked his temperature, and only on the fourth day did it finally settle within the normal range.
The weakness lingered, but it passed. Oliver stayed in bed longer than anyone liked, demanding soup in bed, temperature checks, and drinks on a silver tray. Margaret kept reminding everyone how frail he had been as a child, now finally catching a cold after five years of married life, a tragedy in her eyes.
A week later the doctor discharged him. Sam was taken home from nursery. Oliver would return to work tomorrow.
Sitting at the kitchen table with a steaming mug of tea, Oliver sighed:
When I was a lad, I could shrug off anything. Now this feels unbearable. You have no idea!
Whats so special about it? Why cant you just push through?
If youd been in my shoes, youd see its not easy. Easy to talk when youre feeling fine.
Ive been there too! Ive had it all, but you just didnt see it.
Oliver gave Emma a skeptical look, then a cheeky smile, as if hed finally caught her out.
Joking, are you? All right, lets get some sleep.
Emma let out a weary sigh he really hadnt noticed anything.
And so they both lay there, the night growing quiet. In the end, Emma realized that caring for another does not mean neglecting yourself. She learned that a little honesty about health, a pinch of selfcompassion, and a willingness to ask for help keep a family sturdy, even when the winter wind blows cold. The lesson lingered long after the fever broke: you cannot pour from an empty cup; look after yourself first, so you may look after those you love.
