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— How could I lay such a burden on you? Even my father and Emma refused to take it.

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Maggie, dear, pull yourself together! Who do you think youre marrying? I hear my mother shout, smoothing the lace of my veil.

Can you at least tell me whats wrong with Simon? Im stunned by her tears.

Well, whats there to complain about? His mother works as a shopkeeper and nags everyone. His father disappeared years ago and, in his youth, spent all his time drinking and outofdoor.

Our own grandfather used to drink and chased my grandmother around the village. What of it?

Your grandfather was respected in the village; people remembered him.

It wasnt any easier for my grandmother. I still recall, as a child, how scared she was of him. And you, Mum, you say everything will be fine with Simon. Dont judge a man by his parents.

Youll understand when you have children of your own! Mom says, and I sigh.

Living will be hard if Mom never changes her mind about Simon. Still, Simon and I hold a cheerful wedding and start building our life together. Fortunately, Simon inherits a cottage in the nearby hamlet from his grandparents, left by the mysterious, longgone father who never settled down.

Simon slowly renovates the place, and soon it becomes a proper modern house, which I proudly call our home. All the comforts, life and joy. What a wonderful husband I have, I think, remembering how Mom used to talk about him.

A year after the wedding we welcome a son, James, and four years later a daughter, Emily. As soon as the kids start to fall ill or get into mischief, Mum appears with her endless warnings: Little children, little troubles! Theyll grow up, give you a headache, and inherit a mess of their own!

I try to ignore her remarks, though shes become a habitual complainer. My daughter defied her wishes by marrying without parental consent.

Mom loves to have everything her way, but shes finally accepted my choice and, deep down, even admits that Simon is a solid man. Out loud she would never say it, for that would mean admitting she was wrongsomething she cant bear. She never truly talks about grandchildren, at most out of fear. In truth she dotes on them, and if any harm ever came to them she would leap into a river, her hair standing on end at the thought.

Sometimes I fear those big troubles that past generations warned about, the inevitable worries of children growing up.

And the children do grow. James finishes his eleventh year of school and prepares for adult life. Hes about to start at a respectable university in the nearest city, about a hundred and fortythree miles away.

For a mothers heart, those hundredplus miles feel like the distance between Earth and Mercuryvast.

I spend the first four nights awake, worrying about James: what if someone hurts him? What if he eats badly? What if the town changes him? James is a good lad.

At first James lives in a dorm room that looks more like a country boys shack. My motherly heart cant bear it, so I persuade Simon to rent him a flat in town. James decides to contribute to the rent and picks up a parttime gig online, proving hes the cleverest of us all.

Every weekend I drive to the city to check on James, help with chores, tidy up, even though his flat is surprisingly clean. At home, James never bothers to clean his own room; he prefers a classic mess, yet his meals are always perfectly cookedsteamed patties, casserolesso I cant complain.

Soon my trips start to irritate Simon.

Maggie! Stop hovering over James like a bonnet! Let the boy breathe! Youre stealing my time! I might as well go talk to the postman, Liza, who greets everyone with a smile! he jokes, but the edge is real. How could I manage without my husband if he walks off with Liza? Simon is right; its time to let James live on his own.

I cling to my chickenlittle ways for a while, then gradually learn to accept that James has grown. I grant him freedom and stop smothering him, though it proves pointless.

One day the dean calls: James is missing classes and faces possible expulsion. Are you sure youve got the right student? My James? I panic, take a couple of days off work, and race to the city. Simon cant stop me; sometimes I feel like a moving tank.

James didnt expect me. He hadnt had time to hide his truancy. The cause? A girl named Hannahbeautiful, angeliclooking.

Everything would have been fine. A girl appears in Jamess life; sooner or later it happens. But Hannah also has a oneyearold baby boy in her flat.

I instantly realise the scheme: Hannah, baby in arms, intends to trap my son into marrying her.

Im a modern mum, and such stories arent rare today, but James is far too young to wed and raise children, and Hannah looks barely eighteen. How could she have a baby already?

A storm rages inside me, yet I keep my cool. I greet Hannah, then pull James into the kitchen for a serious talk.

James, are you head over heels? I ask, forcing a smile.

Very much, Mum, he returns the smile.

What about your studies? I tread carefully, like a sapper in a minefield.

I know Ive slipped, Mum, but its a phase. Dont worry, Ill fix it.

What phase? Care to share?

Cant, Mum, thats my secret. Maybe later, when you and Hannah get to know each other better.

Im at a loss, so I take a timeout and head back home.

This is all your fault! I shout at Simon. Give James his freedom! What do we do now?

What actually happened? Simon, ever the optimist, asks. Whats wrong with a readymade child? If James loves her, she isnt a stranger.

Are you ready to be a grandfather? I probe.

Why not? Ive always known Id end up a granddad once I have kids.

But shes not my child!

Maggie, I feel Im not even talking to you. A child cant be a strangerthink about that.

Simon retreats to the spare room, and I wander the empty bedroom at midnight, first venting at the whole absurd situationJames, Hannah, Simonthen calming down, realizing Simon is right as always.

The baby is innocent, and Hannahs circumstances are tragic. By dawn Ive forgiven myself, wiped away tears, and crawled into the couch where Simon naps.

Simon, Im sorry. I finally see how much I love you all! I whisper.

Come here, you silly woman! he lifts the blanket, and I snuggle beside him.

We fall asleep with smiles on our faces. Ill be a grandmother soon enoughwhats the harm? The little boy in Jamess flat, named Michael, is adorable.

Later James tells us hes switching to an evening programme at university and plans to marry Hannah. This time I pause, digest the news, then Simon and I drive to the city for the weekend. Simon, as always, will help us sort things out without breaking any logs a nod to the winter wood well need.

In the hallway, Hannah meets us, wiping a tear.

Please forgive me, I dont want James to be stubborn, but you know how he is, she says.

Stubborn isnt the word, Simon replies, slipping off his shoes. But hes not foolish. If hes decided, it must be necessary. Lets all sit down and talk.

We move to the kitchen; James is nowhere.

James went to fetch milk, hell be back soon, Hannah answers.

Why do you keep apologising? Simon asks. We havent even figured out what youre responsible for. Lets start with a cup of tea. Ive just driven a hundred and fortythree miles.

Oh, sorry, Hannah mutters, flustered.

Simon rolls his eyes, Hannah smiles, and I realise Simon has already accepted Jamess decision. A fragrant tea brews, Simon crunches a homebaked biscuitsomething you rarely see from a modern young housewife. Just then, James returns, brow furrowed, carrying groceries. Theres a steellike glint in his eyes, a new, masculine resolve. I feel I have no right to lecture him any longer.

So, youre marrying? Simon asks, the whole table listening.

Yes, thats final, James replies.

Fair enough. Whats driving the rush? Another child on the way?

No! Hannah flusters, cheeks flushing.

A wild thought darts through my mind: could they really be expecting a baby already? It seems impossible, yet

Then why the hurry? I ask.

Otherwise Michael will be taken to a childrens home, Hannah whispers, eyes down.

Why would a child be taken? Simon presses.

Because his mother passed away in prison, she explains in a hushed voice, her lips trembling.

Hannah, you dont have to explain yourself! James interjects. Mom and dad, please just accept what I told you over the phone. The rest is our business!

Wait, James, Hannah cuts in. If were together now, my family and yours will be linked. I wont hide my life from themits only right.

She falls silent; Simon and I exchange a glance.

Hannah, is Michael your son? I ask.

No! Hes my brother on my mothers side; our fathers are different.

At that moment I feel like I could tear the world apart, but I hold back. Hannah continues, her voice shaking:

My mother died in prison; she had a congenital heart defect. She lived a long, hard life, and had a volatile temper, I suppose.

She sips her tea, sighs heavily. Speaking is hard for her, yet she persists. She tells us how, three years ago, her mother fell in love with a man ten years her junior, Denis. They had a boy, Michael. Their home was noisy, fights and broken dishes were reported in the local paper. One night, after a heated argument, her mother pushed Denis; he stumbled, hit his head on a coffee table, and died two days later in hospital. Her mother was arrested.

Hannah pauses, then we see James and Simon clasp hands under the table. I realise the worst of her tale is yet to come.

Three years ago my mother fell for Denis, ten years younger. When they had Michael, I was happy, visited often. No fights at home, but neighbours later testified hearing shouting and dishes breaking.

One day, after a fierce argument, my mother shoved Denis. He fell, hit his head, and died in hospital. She was jailed, never seeing trial, her heart gave out in a detention cell. Hannah breathes out. Please dont judge her harshly. She was bright, restless, like a hummingbird. I loved her anyway.

Forgive us, Hannah, Simon says once shes quiet. Thank you for sharing. Were now a family and must support each other.

A flash of absurd thought crosses my mind: What are you doing, James! Stop this madness! Weve never had criminals in our blood! I stop myself, picturing myself in a wedding dress while my own mother weeps, trying to stop the marriage.

I whisper to myself, Dont judge people by their parents, Maggie, you never knew that.

An inner battle settles, and a ridiculous yet brilliant idea strikes. I look at Simon, hes smiling. I guess were on the same page.

How about this? Simon suggests. We take legal guardianship of Michael, and you both postpone the wedding and finish your studies.

What? Hannah asks.

Dad, stop! James shouts.

Michael will be happy in the village, remember your own childhood. If you want, you can take him back anytime.

Well look after Michael together, James says. Itll be boring without you, Dad.

Your sisters now more interested in boys than dads, Simon jokes.

Hannah, the decisions yours, I tell her. I cant shoulder that burden; even my stepdad and his wife wouldnt agree.

Suddenly the source of the dispute stands up, slides off the sofa, and walks to the kitchen, extending his handsnot to anyone else, but to Simon.

What a heavy load, Simon chuckles, lifting Michael onto his shoulders.

Simon, youre still blaming your dad, not your grandfather, I laugh.

Wait, he threatens, leaning close to my ear, Ill show you granddad tonight.

The kids fidget but agree to our plan, and the guardianship paperwork goes through without a hitch.

The woman helping us says its common these days for families our age to adopt little ones. Our own children are grown, and theres still a wagonfull of parental love left. Simon and I feel rejuvenated caring for Michael.

At night I sit with him, shedding a few tears, overjoyed by this unexpected happiness.

Mother, as always, scolds us for the decision. She shouts, then sighs, Maggie! What are you doing? And whose little eyes are closing now? Whose tiny fingers are dirty? Oh, I dont know how youll manage! Wheres my Michael, where has he hidden?

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