З життя
The Day I Realized I Was Living with a Monster
**The Day I Realised Id Lived with a Monster**
For eleven years, I thought I had a family. A wife, two children, a homea life that, from the outside, seemed perfectly normal. We had dinner together, handled the daily chores, attended the childrens school events. A flawless routine.
But deep down, I knew something was wrong.
Somewhere along the way, my wife and I had stopped being a couple. We werent partners, we werent in love. We werent even enemies. Just two strangers sharing the same house, bound only by responsibility. We didnt argue, but we didnt talk either. Our conversations turned mechanicalbills, groceries, the childrens schedules.
And I grew used to it. Because it was comfortable.
Until I met *her*.
A different woman. Warm, alive, full of energy. A woman who looked at me as if I were the only man in the world. I tried to lie to myself, to call it a passing fancy, a fleeting attraction.
But the fire inside me didnt fade.
Soon, she became my refuge, my escape from a life that suffocated me. We hid, stealing moments together. And for the first time in years, I felt alive.
But secrets dont stay buried forever. One evening, after making love, she looked into my eyes and said:
*”I wont stay hidden forever. Either were truly together, or it ends here.”*
Her words echoed in my mind for days. I knew I couldnt delay the inevitable any longer.
**The Conversation That Shattered My Life**
That night, after the children had gone to bed, I walked into the kitchen and sat at the table. My wife was there, scrolling through her phone, barely noticing me.
I cleared my throat.
*”We need to talk.”*
She sighed and raised her bored gaze to mine.
*”I cant live like this anymore,”* I said. *”I dont love you. Havent for a long time. I want a new life. But Ill always be there for the children.”*
I expected shouting. Tears. Recriminations.
What she did was far worse.
She said nothing. Slowly, she stood, walked to the hall cupboard, and pulled out two large suitcases.
Then she dropped them in front of me.
*”Take them,”* she said, her voice ice-cold.
I blinked, confused.
*”I dont need that much. Just a rucksack.”*
And then she smiled. But it wasnt sad, or angry. It was strange. Calculated. Filled with a satisfaction I didnt understand.
*”You said youd take care of the children, didnt you?”* she whispered. *”Then Ill pack their things too. From now on, youre a family.”*
My breath caught.
*”What what are you saying?”*
She leaned against the doorframe, arms crossed, studying me like she was waiting for me to crumble.
*”Im done with this life. Ive been a good wife. Ive sacrificed enough. Now its my turn. Ill find someone else. And without children, itll be much easier.”*
I froze.
*”Youre joking,”* I said quietly.
She let out a short laugh.
*”You thought I didnt know? That I hadnt noticed you coming home late? That you stopped looking at me? I knew. Ive always known. I was just waiting for the right moment.”*
She pulled out her phone, typed a quick message, and smiled again. But not at me.
In that moment, I understood.
I thought *I* was the one making decisions. But she had already decided for us both. I was playing chess, but she had moved the queen and left me with no options.
**Trapped in a Nightmare I Cant Wake From**
And now, here I am.
One woman is asking me to choose. Another has already chosen for me.
Do I take my children and knock on my lovers door, hoping she wont turn me away? Or do I stay here, in a house thats no longer mine, with the woman whos just shown me her darkest side?
I dont know the right answer.
Maybe there isnt one.
But one thing I know for certain.
For eleven years, I thought I knew my wife.
Tonight, I realised Id been living with a monster.
