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The Final Encounter in the Autumn Park
The last meeting in the autumn park
They met again in the same green that had witnessed the start of everything twentyodd years ago. Not by design, but by some capricious gust of autumn wind that seemed to wander through the town, turning the pages of forgotten lives.
Edward Harper paced along the avenue, the lampposts casting a golden glow, a crumpled railway ticket tucked into the pocket of his coat. The train was due that evening, bound for another city, and his walk felt like a silent farewell to the place that had housed his whole summer and the first blush of his youth.
On the familiar benchits stone seat chipped at one corner, the initials E. + M. etched into the backsat Ethel Morris. She was wrapped in a beige overcoat, eyes fixed on the pond where ducks dabbed at the shore, begging passing strangers for crumbs.
Edward halted, and his heart made that old, forgotten motionnot a sudden thump, but a slow swing like a pendulum measuring time backward. He recognized her not from countless faces, but from the tilt of her head, the way her hands rested together on her knees.
Ethel? he croaked, his voice hoarse and strange.
She turned, not startled but as if she had been waiting for his name. Her greygreen eyes widened.
Edward? My God Edward.
He sat down beside her, keeping a respectable gapenough room for two decades. The air smelled of damp leaves, faint smoke, and expensive perfume, nothing like the sweet, reckless scents of their younger days.
What brings you here? they asked together, laughing awkwardly.
She explained she had taken a stroll after a lecture at the nearby college; he, simply, was saying goodbye.
A comfortable, heavy pause settled between them.
Remember, she began, gazing at the water, how we first met here? You were on your skateboard and almost knocked me over.
I didnt just almost, Edward smiled. I actually did. You fell straight into a puddle, and instead of apologising I shouted that youd broken my board.
And I wailed not because of ruined stockings, but because you were so uncouth, Ethel shook her head, the corners of her eyes gathering tiny laugh lines that, to Edward, shone brighter than any jewellery. Then you showed up the next day with a box of Squirrel chocolates.
We sat on that bench until dark, he added softly.
Memory, like an old projector, flickered to life, spilling bright, slightly faded scenes onto the minds screen. They saw themselves as youths, roasting sausages over a campfire with friends; Ethel, her hands blackened with soot, feeding him with a fork while he pretended to bite his own finger. They remembered sprinting through a sudden downpour after a film premiere, drenched to the bone, shouting with delight. He recalled giving her a silver ring set with a tiny sapphire on her birthday, the price of which had been all his summer earnings, and her clutching it to her lips in tears.
Now, speaking of those moments came easily, as if the words had never been buried beneath years of routine, disappointment, and adult responsibilities.
Do you recall our quarrel over university choices? Ethel asked. You wanted to go to Manchester, I couldnt leave because of my mother.
I was a fool, Edward whispered. I said that if you love someone youll travel to the ends of the earth.
And I said that if you love someone youll understand, she sighed. We were so young, convinced love was a wondrous force that solved everything. Yet it turned out as fragile as the first ice on that pond.
Silence fell. A maple shed its leaves, swirling in a slow, farewell waltz.
How are you, really? Edward asked, already knowing the answer. Well didnt quite fit their lives. She had a family and a job; he ran his own firm in another town, with his own worries. All was ordinary, not well in the sense two lovers on a bench might imagine.
Yes, she replied, her eyes mirroring his. Everythings fine.
He slipped his hand into his coat, clenching the ticket that marked his departure from this town, from this park, from her.
Do you know, he said, extending his hand, I can still recall the scent of your hair. Not perfume, but the simple smell of applescented shampoo and sunshine.
Ethels eyes glittered.
I remember your whistle, she said. You had that twofinger trill, whistling as you approached my flat, and I would dash onto the balcony like a madwoman.
He tried to whistle now; it came out weak and uncertain. The skill was lost. Both smiled again, this time with a quiet, aching tenderness.
It was time to part. They rose from the bench together, as if old habit dictated it.
Goodbye, Edward, she said.
Goodbye, Ethel.
No embrace, no kiss on the cheekjust a drift apart down the path, just as they had twenty years before, when they still believed tomorrow would bring another meeting. Now, there would be no tomorrow.
Edward walked to the parks exit and turned. Ethel was already a distant silhouette fading into dusk. He pulled the ticket from his pocket, stared at the blurred letters and numbers, then, slowly and deliberately, tore it into shreds and dropped the pieces into a nearby bin.
He wasnt carrying a burden out of the city; he was simply leaving it where it belonged. He stepped forward into the chill of the approaching evening, the faint scent of apple shampoo lingering like a sweet memory.
Beyond the parks fence, the citys roar crashed over himcars honking, hurried footsteps, the smell of diesel and kebab from a corner stall. Edward buttoned his coat and drifted aimlessly toward the railway station, though his train no longer waited.
He stalked familiar streets, each corner now a page from the book they had once written together. He recalled the old cinema The Crown where theyd hidden from sudden rain to share a kiss, the former café where Ethel first tasted Turkish coffee and grimaced, It tastes like bitter earth. That spot now bore a sleek banks sign.
The thought of returning, of finding her, of saying something what? That all those years he had been looking for her reflection in strangers faces? That no success ever smelled as sweet as her shampoo? It would have been madness. They were adults with obligations, schedules, lives that no longer intertwined.
Meanwhile, Ethel settled on another bench a short walk away, watching the wind push the last brown leaves across the water, pondering how odd life could be. Two decadesan entire life built with another partner, a grown son, a defended thesis, a comfortable routinecould dissolve in a tenminute conversation.
She remembered his steady, slightly testing gaze, the one that once made her breath catch. The gaze that saw not a respected lecturer but the girl on a skateboard, drenched and wildly happy.
A sudden, almost physical urge to sprint after him rose, to ask, What if? Yet her legs obeyed the cadence of years, the predictability of home, her husband probably wondering why she lingered.
Collecting her thoughts, Ethel rose and headed toward her institute, where her car waited. She walked without looking back at the pond, the bench, the ghosts of their youth.
Edward reached the station. The massive timetable board glittered with destinations that held no one waiting for him. He approached the ticket office.
Where to, sir? the weary clerk asked.
Edward glanced at her, then at his hands that, half an hour earlier, had clenched the useless ticket.
Nowhere, he whispered. Ive already arrived.
He turned and walked away from the station. He had no certainty about tomorrow. Perhaps he would find work here, perhaps a modest flat overlooking a park, perhaps just a few more days breathing the autumn air.
He no longer sought another meeting with her. That encounter had already shaken him, reminded him of who he truly was beneath the layers of years and business deals.
For the first time in many years, he had nowhere to rush. He was simply Edward, a man who had once loved Ethel, and that, oddly enough, was enough for that evening. The past could not be reclaimed, but he could stop fleeing from it. In that pause lay a strange, bittersweet, healing liberty.
He wandered the quiet, evening streets, the city no longer a museum of his losses. Lanterns glowed not as nostalgic garlands but as simple guides forward. He felt a light emptiness, as if space in his soul had opened for something new. The past finally released himnot with the slam of a door, but with a soft, relieved sigh. In that silence, something genuinely his began to unfold.
