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The Long-Awaited Granddaughter Natalia Michaels had been persistently calling her son, who had set off yet again for another stint at sea. But there was still no connection. “Oh, what a mess you’ve made, son!” she sighed anxiously, dialing his number once more. No matter how many times she called, she knew she wouldn’t get through until he reached the next port—and that could be ages. And with all this going on! For the second night in a row, Natalia couldn’t sleep—this was the trouble her son had caused! * * * This story truly began some years earlier, when Michael hadn’t yet dreamed of working long-haul jobs at sea. He was already a grown man, but relationships with women just wouldn’t work out—none of them seemed to meet his mysterious standards! Natalia watched with a heavy heart as her son’s promising relationships with perfectly nice, respectable girls—at least, to her mind—kept falling apart. “You’re impossible!” she’d say to him. “Nothing ever pleases you! What woman is ever going to meet your demands?” “I don’t understand your complaints, Mum. You just want a daughter-in-law, and you don’t even care what kind of person she is.” “It does matter! I just want her to love you, and to be decent!” He would respond with silence—something that infuriated Natalia. How was it that the son she’d raised, who used to cry in her lap as a little boy, now behaved as if he knew more about life than she did? Who was the adult here? “What on earth was wrong with Claire?” she would erupt. “I already told you.” “Well… Claire might have been a bad example, but there’s always someone else. You said she wasn’t honest with you—though I still don’t fully understand…” “Mum! I don’t think we should discuss the details. Claire’s not someone I want to spend my life with.” “And Sophie?” “No, not Sophie either,” her son would reply calmly. “And Rachel? She was a lovely girl—quiet, home-loving, sweet. She would always ask if she could help around the house. Isn’t that right?” “You’re right, Mum. She was sweet. But it turned out she never really loved me.” “And you?” “Probably not, either.” “What about Emily?” “Mum!” “What do you mean, ‘Mum’? You’re impossible to please! You’re turning into a playboy! Why can’t you just settle down, find a wife, have children?” “Let’s stop this pointless conversation!” Michael would finally snap, and storm off somewhere. “He’s all his father—so stubborn and insistent!” Natalia would fume with frustration. Time passed, girlfriends came and went, but the cherished dream of seeing her son happily settled, and of cuddling grandchildren, never materialised. Then Michael changed careers entirely—an old friend invited him to work on the ships, and Michael agreed. Natalia tried to talk him out of it, to no avail. “Mum, it’s great pay! Do you have any idea how much the lads make? We’ll be set for life!” “What do I care about your salary if you’re off somewhere all the time and I never see you? I’d rather you started a family!” “Well I need to provide for that family first! When there are kids, I won’t be able to go to sea—I’ll need to raise them. So I’ll save up now while I can, and then do the rest!” Michael really did earn well. After his first voyage, he refurbished the flat; after the second, he opened a bank account and handed Natalia a card. “That’s so you’ll never want for anything!” “I already don’t want for anything! I just wish for grandchildren—the years are slipping by! I’m getting old!” “Oh, don’t be daft, you’re not old! You’ve still got years till retirement!” her son scoffed. Natalia didn’t touch the money. She had her modest pharmacist’s wage, which was plenty for her simple needs. “Let it sit there, as it should. Michael won’t notice anyway. Someday he’ll check and be surprised at what a thrifty mother he’s got!” she’d think. And so they lived for several years. On his short visits home, Michael made up for lost time—meeting friends, going out, partying, and dating girls her mother never even met. When she brought it up, he’d answer shortly and harshly. “This way you won’t fret later about me not marrying any of them. I have no intention of marrying girls like that, Mum!” Natalia found it hurtful, especially when her son accused her of being too trusting. “You always see the best in people, Mum! You hardly knew my so-called fiancées. They were on best behaviour for you, but that’s not what they were really like.” His words stung—being trusting apparently made her naïve, even foolish. He had called her foolish, really! But then she saw him with a girl—Natalia couldn’t resist and went straight over. Michael, a grown man, even blushed. But a mum is a mum—he had to introduce her. Natalia liked Millie straight away: tall, slim, curly-haired, pleasant in looks and manners. Seeing such a pretty woman with her son, Natalia immediately forgave him everything. “Maybe he was just unlucky before! Maybe it’s good he left all those others—he’d have never met such a lovely one otherwise!” she thought. Their romance lasted through Michael’s entire break, and, with some nudging, Millie visited several times. Natalia was delighted—Millie was talkative, clever, and easy company. But when Michael left for his next tour, Millie simply vanished. “We’re not in touch anymore. And you shouldn’t be either,” Michael said, and left. Natalia fretted for ages about what had happened, but couldn’t discover anything. * * * A year went by. Through several visits home, Michael remained curt and cold when asked about the sweet girl. “For heaven’s sake, what was wrong with this one? What about Millie?” Natalia finally demanded. “Mum, that’s my business. If it’s over, it’s for a good reason. Please, stay out of my life!” Natalia nearly burst into tears. “But Michael, I just care about you!” “Don’t! And again—I don’t want you speaking to Millie! And stop nagging me!” Soon, Michael set off to sea again, and, with a heavy heart, Natalia returned to her usual routine during his absence. Then, one day, a young woman came into the pharmacy to buy baby formula. It was Millie! She was embarrassed, looking away, easily flustered as she tended gently to a child in her stroller. “Millie! I’m so glad to see you! Michael never explained anything—just left and told me not to ask!” Natalia burst out. “Did he?” Millie replied sadly. “Well, so be it.” Natalia grew anxious. “Tell me, dear, what happened between you two? I know my son—he’s a handful. Did he hurt you?” “It doesn’t matter… I don’t hold it against him. Well, we have errands to run…” “Pop by again sometime! Even just to work—my shifts change all the time. We can have a chat!” And Millie did, the very next shift, buying baby formula again. Slowly, Natalia coaxed the story from her. Millie had fallen pregnant by Michael; he’d told her he wanted nothing to do with a child—he was away too much, never intended a serious relationship. Then he disappeared. “Went on tour, I suppose,” Millie shrugged. “But that’s okay! We won’t be a burden to anyone. Just the two of us.” Natalia nearly wept as she kneeled beside the stroller, gazing at the little girl. “So she’s… my granddaughter?” “It would seem so,” Millie said softly. “Her name’s Annie.” “Annie…” *** Natalia couldn’t sit still anymore. She pried the details out—Millie had nowhere much to live. She was from another town, renting a flat rarely affordable without a regular salary, and was considering moving back to her parents’. The thought of her granddaughter moving far out of reach made Natalia’s heart ache. “Move in with me, Millie—with Annie! She’s my granddaughter, I’ll help in every way! You’ll find a proper job, and Michael sends so much money, there’s nothing else to spend it on. Annie will have everything she needs!” “What would Michael say?” “Who cares? He’s made a mess, abandoned his child, said nothing to his own mother! Let me try and make amends. When he gets back, I’ll have words, I promise you!” Natalia shook her fist for emphasis. So they settled in together. Natalia spared no expense or effort for her granddaughter, even cutting back her shifts to spend more time with Annie. Millie found a job, leaving Annie with Natalia—often returning late, exhausted. “It’s been a long day—so many customers, and all so temperamental!” “Never mind! Go relax. I’ll bathe Annie and tuck her in myself!” Michael’s leave was drawing near. Natalia imagined greeting her son with Annie in her arms and planned to put him straight, while Millie was growing ever more anxious. But Natalia was only emboldened—she wanted to protect Millie and her little granddaughter. “Michael will come home and kick us out—I’m scared, Natalia! I shouldn’t have moved in. Tomorrow, I’ll look for a new flat.” “Kick you out? I won’t allow it! When he gets home, he’ll get a piece of my mind!” “No, really—he’ll just say I’m after your money. I don’t want anything from you. You’re just so kind! But I should go back to my parents. We’ll stay in touch, though!” “Oh, you’re not going anywhere! I own this flat, after all! I can let whoever I please live here. Michael won’t get a say!” No matter how much Millie protested, Natalia was adamant. She wasn’t letting her and her granddaughter go. “You know what? We should deed this flat over to Annie right away! So there’ll never be any questions. Michael may never get married, but Annie should have something. After all, Michael’s not on her birth certificate, is he?” Natalia looked at Millie, who avoided her eyes. “I’m sorry,” Millie whispered. “I just thought—” “I understand. It’s just, in case, it’ll be hard to prove she’s his daughter. Tomorrow, we’ll sort it all.” “No, Natalia, that isn’t necessary. My parents have a flat…” “Don’t talk me out of it! I’ve made up my mind!” They went to do it, but the solicitor refused. “For that, your son must first cede his rights to the property.” Natalia was annoyed, but with Michael due any day, she comforted herself that it would all be resolved soon. Meanwhile, Millie’s nerves grew tauter, and she started coming home late. “Where’re you always disappearing to?” Natalia asked one evening. Millie hesitated. “Well…work. I’m hoping for an advance, but my boss says I’ll only get it once I’ve finished what he’s assigned.” “Why do you need an advance? Are you short on money?” Millie quietly changed her clothes. Natalia, following her, noticed some of Millie’s things stuffed into a large bag behind the bed. “Are you moving out?” Millie stayed silent. “Are you really going to rent?” “Natalia, I have to go. Once Michael’s here…” “I won’t let you go, with Annie! Not a chance. And enough with these late shifts! I told you where the bank card is, and its code. Use it—you don’t need to work all hours. Annie’s going to forget what her mum looks like! If you want Michael to accept you, you have to learn to be a homemaker.” Millie said nothing. Michael was due home in two days. * * * Early on the morning he was to return, Natalia decided to peek into Millie and Annie’s room—just to watch them sleep. But Millie wasn’t there; only Annie, dozing peacefully under her blanket. “Where’s she gone? It’s only six a.m.—Millie never leaves this early!” Natalia went to the kitchen to finish preparing Michael’s favourite dishes, all the while rehearsing how she’d greet him with Annie and make him apologise to Millie. At last, the doorbell rang. Michael stood in the doorway, frozen at the sight of his mother holding a young child. “Hello, Mum. Whose child is this? What did I miss while I was away?” “You should know that yourself!” “I don’t get it,” Michael muttered, stepping inside. “So, tell me: what adventures have you had while I’ve been away?” “Adventures? I found my granddaughter, Annie! That’s what!” Natalia declared, staring him down. “What granddaughter? Do I have siblings I’ve never heard of?” Michael asked, perplexed. “Stop playing games, Michael! Millie told me everything! I didn’t raise you to act like this. I’m ashamed of you!” “Millie? What? First, I asked you not to contact her. Second, what does she—or this child—have to do with me?” Enraged, Natalia blurted out everything, scolding him all the while. Michael listened, exasperated. “Oh, Mum!” he finally exploded. “Are you going to call me foolish again? Go on then. But I—” “She’s not my child, Mum! Millie tricked you! You’re so— You’re just too trusting! Wait—she just wanted your money, I realised that long ago… what did she take?” “Nothing! You—” “Mum! Check your savings—Millie’s probably done a runner with them already!” “She just went to work!” Natalia insisted. They argued for hours, until Michael agreed to wait for Millie to return so everything could be sorted. They waited until late, during which Natalia recounted everything—how she’d met Millie, how they’d all lived together, even her plans to deed the flat to Annie. Michael kept insisting they’d been taken in, but— “I don’t believe you! Millie’s a lovely girl—” “She’s a charming con artist, more like. How could you be so naïve?” “Enough! When she comes back, you’ll see! I’ll play with my granddaughter till then.” “She’s not your granddaughter!” Natalia glowered at him. “In the end,” he added, “a DNA test will clear this up.” “Exactly what we’ll do!” Natalia declared, storming off. Night fell. Millie never came home. Nor did she the next day. Her phone rang unanswered. Natalia went to the address where she claimed to work—with Annie in tow—only to learn Millie had never worked there. No one recognised her from the photo. Natalia hurried home and, just as Michael advised, checked her savings. No money, no bank card—only Annie’s things were left. Reality crashed down. “How could this be? I can’t believe she’d just leave Annie and run!” “She could do worse,” Michael muttered. “People warned me. And then I heard from Fred that she robbed him blind… But I still brought her home to meet you. Then she turned up pregnant—from who knows who. Claimed it was mine… but everyone said she was seeing lots of blokes.” “How naïve I am!” Natalia sobbed. “Why didn’t you tell me? I’d have known what sort of woman she was!” “I didn’t want to upset you—you’re always too open-hearted.” “What now?” “We call the police! Thank goodness you didn’t manage to sign over the flat to Annie—otherwise you’d be out on the street.” They filed a report, but Millie had disappeared without a trace. Months passed, with no news. But she hadn’t managed to take much—a quick-thinking Michael had blocked the card. It was later found at a train station some distance away. While the search continued, Annie was allowed to stay with Natalia. She quit her job to care for the toddler, with Michael’s generous salary covering everything. DNA testing showed Michael wasn’t the father, but Natalia was already too attached to Annie to ever part with her. Together, she and her son decided to raise Annie as their own. With no trace of Millie, her parental rights were revoked in absentia. The legal process of establishing guardianship was long and arduous: Michael was denied, and Natalia had to return to work, organising childcare and navigating endless bureaucracy. Eventually, though, they found a rhythm. They became a family. A year later, Michael returned from another voyage—with a wife. “Mum, meet Sophie. She’s moving in with us.” “But what about—” Natalia faltered, gesturing to the nursery, unsure if Michael had told his new wife everything. But Sophie beamed. “So lovely to meet you, Natalia! Michael has told me all about everything—and, honestly, I admire what you did! If you’ll let me help raise Annie, I’d be delighted, because—” she glanced at Michael. “I’m ending my time at sea,” Michael said, “and we’ll formally adopt Annie together. Now we won’t be refused!” Natalia beamed with joy: “Oh, what happiness! Come in, the table’s set—I’ve cooked for an army! Let’s all have a proper meal together. I’m so happy!”—and she wiped a joyful tear from her cheek.
The Long-Awaited Granddaughter
15th April
Mum keeps ringing my phone, desperate to get through. But theres no signal out here, and Im still days away from Portsmouths port. I can easily picture her, pacing her little lounge in Oxford, clutching the receiver and sighing, Oh, Tom, what have you done now?
She wont be able to sleep, that much I know. This latest mess is down to me, after all.
* * *
To be honest, it all started years ago. Back then, I hadnt even considered work at sea. Mum kept a worried eye on me as one relationship after another crumbled. I was in my late twentieswith no shortage of women, but none seemed quite right. Mum would shake her head, hands on hips.
Youre impossible to please, Tom! What woman could ever live up to these invisible standards of yours?
Mum, youre only cross because you want a daughter-in-law and a baby to fuss over.
Thats not true, shed insist, peering over her glasses. I just want you to have someone loving and decent.
At that, Id go quiet, knowing any answer would drag this out even longer. Mum never seemed to understand why I ended things: Lucy was self-absorbed; Sarah never wanted to settle down; Emily, lovely as she was to Mum, flat-out admitted she didnt love me.
What about Cara? Mum would press, desperate to list every girl whod ever so much as smiled at me.
Mum, lets just not, Id plead, and escape to the pub before she could line up the next candidate.
Mum always huffed, Youre just like your Dad, you knowfussy and stubborn right down to your socks!
Time passed, girlfriends came and went. But Mums dream, the one where she saw me married and herself cradling a grandchild, just wasnt happening. Later, I bumped into Rob, an old mate from uni, who offered me work on the ferries. The idea of a decent wage was tempting, and I took itdespite Mums protests.
Whats the use in making all that money if youre just going to be off somewhere in the Channel, leaving me all alone? Why not settle down, Tom?
Mum, I willeventually! Right now, I want to save up while I can. No point in giving up this opportunity while Im still young enough to make the most of it.
Truth be told, the job was good to me. By the end of my first run, Id renovated the flat. Second tripopened a savings account and handed my mum a bank card.
So youll never want for anything, Mum.
Oh, I manage just fine! All I want is to see you with a family, not money. Mum retorted, but I could see the glimmer of pride in her eyes.
She didnt touch the account anywayher own job at the local chemist sorts her just fine. Let the balance grow, shed mutter, Tom never really checks it. One day hell see how little I spend!
Between trips, I made the most of shore leavepint with the lads, wandered back home late, the odd fling. Mum clocked this at once and made her feelings known.
I dont introduce you because Im not marrying any of them. I just want to have a life, Mum! Id snap, regretting it moments later.
But the worst jab, I realise now, was when I told her she was too trusting. She never forgot.
One day, though, she spotted me walking through the market with Sophie. Mum being Mum, she strode straight upleaving me red-faced as she appraised Sophie with a practised eye. Sophie was tall and willowy, a shock of curly blonde hair and a shy smile. Mum was instantly won over.
Maybe, she mused to herself, he just hadnt met the right one yet.
Our holiday romance was brief but bright, and prompted by Mum, Sophie made a few appearances for dinner. Mum delighted in her, soaking up every story and laughing along as if Sophie were already family. Then, when I got ready to leave for my next trip, Sophie vanished.
Were not in contact anymore, Mum. Best let things be, was all I said before heading out.
* * *
A year went by. I was home for a few stints, but avoided the subject whenever Sophies name cropped up. Eventually, Mums patience broke.
For heavens sake, Tom! What was wrong with Sophie?
Mum, leave it. My life isnt your problem.
But I worry she started, voice trembling.
Please dont! I barked, more sharply than intended. And leave her out of this. I wish youd just stop.
After I left again, Mums routines resumed: work, family, keeping her cards close to her chest.
Then, while she was behind the pharmacy counter one Thursday, a young woman came in for baby formula. It was Sophiepale, nervous, with a little girl in a buggy.
Sophie! Im so glad to see you! Tom never explained, just stormed off and wouldnt let me ask anything! Mum blurted out in relief.
Sophie avoided her gaze. Thats just how it is sometimes, she replied, a sadness in her voice.
Please, Sophie, tell me what happened, Mum pressed. I know my sonhe can be difficult. Did he hurt you, love?
Sophie only shrugged, It doesnt matter. No hard feelings. Anyway, I best dashneed to get some more shopping done.
But she came back, the following week, again for baby milk. Eventually, Mum coaxed the story out. Sophie confessed she’d fallen pregnantnot by plan. According to her, I wanted nothing to do with a child. He said he never wanted a familybeing away at sea And then he just stopped calling.
Well do just fine by ourselves, Sophie said bravely.
Mum, bless her sentimental heart, crouched by the buggy, tears in her eyes. So shes my granddaughter?
Yes. Her names Grace.
***
That night, Mum wrestled with all the possibilities. She learned Sophie was renting, struggling to make ends meet, and far from family. The thought of her granddaughter leaving Oxford for good twisted Mums stomach with fear.
You must move in with me, Sophie! You and Grace bothIll help you find a job with proper hours. And with Tom sending me money, well be just fine. Grace will want for nothing!
But whatll Tom say?
To hell with what he thinks! Mum huffed. Hes made enough of a mess as it is!
And so, they settled into a new routine. Mum cut down her work hours to spend more time doting on Grace, and Sophie found a position at the local shop. Frequently, Sophie returned home late, exhausted from dealing with difficult customers.
Go on, take a rest! Ill bathe Grace and put her to bed, Mum would insist, ever eager.
With my next leave approaching, tension was thick in the air. Sophie was anxious I’d ask them to leave. Mum, however, was defiant as ever.
If he dares say a word, Ill have plenty to say right back! This is my home, after all, shed declare, prepping another round of Graces favourite mash.
One evening, when Mum discovered Sophies things packed in a suitcase, she confronted her.
Where do you think youre going?
Sophie didnt want to answer, but Mum pressed, If its about money, you know where I keep my cardthe codes in the drawer. You work too hard, Sophie. Grace will forget what you look like!
Again, Sophie said little. The day I was due home was just round the corner.
* * *
On my return, Mum went to check on Sophie and Grace, only to find Sophie gone, with little Grace sleeping soundly. Perplexed, Mum tried to distract herself by getting my favourite shepherds pie in the oven.
When I arrived, I stopped cold, seeing Mum cradling a toddler.
Hello, Mum. And whos this?
You tell me, Tom, she challenged, voice trembling.
Im lost here, I admitted, scrubbing my hands at the sink. Whats happened since I left?
Grace is your daughtermy granddaughter! she declared.
But I Is this some kind of joke? Sophie and I havent spoken since last year.
By now, Mum was upset, rattling off the tale of Sophies baby and my supposed neglect, tears streaming.
I stared at her in disbelief.
Mum, Sophie isnt my childs mother. Shes spun you a story, and thats all there is to it. Ill prove it if I have to. Check your savingsId bet shes helped herself!
Mum bristled back, Shed never Shes just at work!
But when Sophie didnt return, and with every hour, Mums panic grew. I insisted on a DNA test, but that night dragged on with Grace sleeping, blissfully unaware.
The next morning, Mum tracked down the shop where Sophie had claimed to workonly to be told no one by that name had ever been employed there. When she checked her room, the savings card was missing all her things too, except a battered nappy bag for Grace. Mum finally understood.
How could I have been so naïve? she sobbed. Why didnt you tell me what she was really like?
I just didnt want to bring you down. I knew Sophie was trouble the minute Rob warned me about herthere were stories, but I was a mug. She told me she was pregnant, I didnt believe it, but she brought you home and well. I wasnt sure about anything.
In the end, Mum and I filed a report with the police. Sophie vanished, leaving Grace behind. Luckily, between Mum, our family solicitor, and a tangle of forms, we managed to get custody. The DNA results showed no relation, yet Mum had come to love Grace dearly. We decided, together, to raise her as our own. By then Id built enough savings to support us all, and Mum managed to keep working part time so she could focus on Grace.
A year passed. On my next return, I brought a surprise.
Mum, meet Alicemy wife. And wed both like very much to help raise Grace.
Are you sure? Mum asked, swallowing back tears.
Alice smiled, reaching for Grace. I know all about everything, and honestly, I think youve both acted with more kindness and courage than most people could manage. If youll have me, Id love to be part of this family.
I finally told Mum I was ready to give up life at sea and look for work closer to home.
We all sat at the kitchen table, Mum serving up endless plates of scones and tea, chat bubbling, laughter loud and warm.
As I look back, I finally understand: Years chasing after perfection or running from responsibility did little for any of us. In the end, its kindnessthe willingness to accept lifes mess and look after someone unexpectedthat builds a real family. Sometimes, you find your legacy in the least likely of places.
