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Jealousy Ruined My Life: The Moment I Saw My Wife Step Out of Another Man’s Car, I Lost Control and …
Jealousy Ruined Me: The Moment I Saw My Wife Step Out of Another Mans Car, I Lost Control and Destroyed Everything
I stood by the window, gripping my glass of whisky so tightly my knuckles turned white. The clock on the wall ticked with an ominous regularity, each second seeming to drag on forever.
It was late. Far too late.
Then I saw the headlights.
A black Jaguar pulled up and slowed to a stop just outside our flat. My breath caught in my throat. Behind the wheel was a man tall, confident, a stranger. Someone Id never seen before.
Then the passenger door opened.
And my wife stepped out.
My stomach twisted. She was smiling a warm, honest smile, the sort I hadnt seen from her in a long time. She leaned in toward the driver, murmured something, and he laughed. Laughed.
After a few seconds, she closed the door and started towards the entrance, the car driving off behind her.
I felt my blood boil.
How long had this been going on? How many nights had I fallen asleep peacefully, unaware she was coming home from another mans car?
The door to our flat swung open and she walked in, utterly unconcerned, tossing her handbag onto the table.
Who was that? My voice came out low, threatening.
She stopped in her tracks and looked at me, surprised. What?
The man who just dropped you off. Who was he?
She sighed, clearly exasperated. Oh, for heavens sake, John. It was Emilys husband he gave me a lift home. What on earth is wrong with you?
But I wasnt listening anymore.
I could hear nothing but the roaring of blood in my ears, drowning out everything else.
Thats when I raised my hand.
The sharp sound of my palm across her cheek shattered the silence.
She stumbled back, hand to her face. A thin line of blood appeared at the corner of her nose.
A heavy silence fell.
Her eyes widened, and in them I saw something Id never seen before fear.
My heart clenched.
Id crossed a line.
A line that could never be uncrossed.
She didnt scream. She didnt cry. She didnt speak. She simply took her coat from the chair and left.
The next morning, the divorce papers arrived.
I lost everything including my son
Ive put up with your jealousy for years, she told me in our final conversation, her voice cold, empty. But I will never tolerate violence.
I begged her to forgive me. I swore it was a terrible mistake. That I wasnt like that. That it would never happen again.
But it was too late.
Then the final blow in court, she claimed I was aggressive towards our boy as well.
A lie.
A filthy, cunning lie. I had never raised my voice to him, never laid a hand on him in anger.
But who would believe me? A man whod struck his wife?
The judge barely hesitated.
She was granted full custody.
Me? I got just a few hours a week. One supervised visit, in a sterile, neutral place.
No home. No evenings tucking him in. No mornings making him breakfast.
For six months, I lived only for those hours.
The moments when my son would rush into my arms, laughing, hugging me, telling me his little stories.
And each time, I had to let him go. Watching him walk away, leaving me behind, alone.
The truth my son told me
He was growing up. Noticing more, asking questions.
One day, while he played quietly with his toy cars, he suddenly said, in the most innocent voice:
Daddy, Mummy wasnt home last night. A lady came to look after me.
I froze.
A lady? Who? I asked, trying to stay calm.
I dont know. She comes over when Mummy goes out in the evening.
My heart skipped a beat.
Where does Mum go?
He shrugged. She doesnt tell me.
My hands were shaking.
I began to investigate. I needed the truth.
And when I found out, it nearly blinded me.
Shed hired a nanny.
While I clung desperately to each minute I had with my son, she was leaving him with a stranger.
I picked up the phone and rang her.
Why is a stranger caring for our son when Im right here?
Her voice was cool, indifferent. Because its simpler.
Simpler?! I gritted my teeth. Im his father! When youre out, he should be with me!
She sighed. John, Im not going to bring him to you every single time I have plans. This isnt about you.
I clenched the phone so hard I thought it might snap.
What could I do? Take her to court? Fight again for custody? But what if I lost everything again?
One mistake.
One moment of weakness.
And I had lost it all.
But my son?
I will never lose him.
Ill fight.
Because hes the only thing I have left.
