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Ex-Husband Promises Son a Flat But Insists I Marry Him Again
I am sixty years old and I live in Birmingham. I never imagined that after everything I have endured, after twenty years of quiet and isolation, the past would barge back into my life with such cold cynicism. The most painful part is that the one who triggers this return is none other than my own son.
When I am twentyfive, I am hopelessly in love. Mark tall, charming, full of life seems the fulfillment of a dream. We marry quickly, and a year later our son Felix is born. The early years feel like a fairytale. We share a small flat, dream together, make plans. I work as a teacher and he is an engineer. It feels as though nothing could shatter our happiness.
Gradually, Mark starts to change. He comes home later more often, tells lies, keeps his distance. I ignore the gossip, the odd perfume on his coat, the late arrivals. Then the truth becomes unmistakable: he is cheating on me, and not just once. Friends, neighbours, even his parents all know. I try to preserve the family for Felixs sake. I hold on far too long, hoping Mark will come to his senses. One night I wake to find he has not returned, and I realise the marriage is over.
I pack our things, take fiveyearold Felix by the hand and move in with my mother. Mark makes no attempt to stop us. A month later he claims a job abroad, moves overseas, finds another woman and wipes us from his life. No letters, no calls. Complete indifference. My mother dies, then my father. Felix and I face everything together school, hobbies, illnesses, joys, his Alevels. I work three shifts so he never lacks anything. I have no time for a relationship; he is my whole world.
When Felix gains a place at university in Oxford, I support him as best I can with parcels, money and encouragement. I cannot buy him a flat it is beyond my means but he never complains. He says he will manage on his own. I am proud of him.
A month ago he comes to me with news: he intends to marry. The joy is shortlived. He looks nervous, avoids my gaze, then blurts out:
Mum I need your help. Its about Dad.
I am stunned. He tells me he has recently reestablished contact with Mark, that his father has returned to the UK and is offering Felix the keys to a twobedroom flat he inherited from his grandmother. But there is a condition: I must remarry and let Mark live in my flat.
My breath catches. I stare at my son, unable to believe he is serious. He continues:
Youre alone you have no one. Why not give it another try? For me. For my future family. Dad has changed
I stand in silence and drift to the kitchen. The kettle whistles, my hands tremble, tea steams, everything blurs. For twenty years I have carried everything on my own. For twenty years he never once asked how we were doing. Now he returns with an offer.
I go back to the living room and say calmly:
No. I will not agree.
Felix erupts, shouting and accusing me of selfishness, claiming he never had a father because of me, saying I am destroying his life again. I stay silent, because each word pierces my heart. He does not know how sleepless fatigue has robbed my nights, how I sold my wedding ring to buy him a winter coat, how I denied myself food so he could eat meat.
I do not feel lonely. My life has been hard but honest. I have a job, books, a garden, friends. I do not need a man who once betrayed me and now returns not out of love but convenience.
Felix leaves without saying goodbye. He has not called since. I know he is hurt. I understand him; he wants the best for himself, as I once did for him. But I will not sell my dignity for a few square metres. The price is too high.
Perhaps he will understand someday, perhaps not. I will wait, because I love him with a true, unconditional love no conditions, no flat, no if. I gave him life and raised him, and I will not allow love to become a commodity.
And my exhusband he stays where he belongs: in the past.
