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Excuse me, madam, I hope you won’t be cross with me… but could I kindly have one of those lovely pastries? the shy old lady asked the baker at the bakery.
Madam, please dont be cross with me could I have one of those lovely doughnuts? the trembling old woman asked the baker at the corner bap shop.
There are days that seem to be born weary. The sky is a dull slate, people rush, buses overflow, and thoughts sit too heavy for any single mind. For Aunt Ethel, that cold November morning began with a single thought: Today Ill get Tommy a new coat, whatever it takes.
Tommy was her sevenyearold grandson, a polite boy with warm, wide eyes who had learned far too early what lack feels like. His mother had vanished when he was still a tot, and his father had disappeared years ago in a faroff city, never to be heard from again.
So the old woman clutched the child to her chest and, from that moment, declared to everyone, Hes mine. God left him to me, and Ill raise him. She had no sizable pension, no grand house, nothing but a few pennies saved over the years and a heart as big as the Thames. Yet as long as Tommy was by her side and there was something to set on the table, the whole world seemed bearable.
Tommys coat, however, was no longer bearable at all. It was an old handmedown, once thick and decent, now riddled with holes. The down leaked through the seams, the zipper stuck halfway, and the cold wind seeped in through every crack.
The night before, Ethel had seen Tommy shiver on his way home from school.
Cold, love? she asked.
No, he tried to sound brave, though his lips were blue.
Ethel made a decision. In a tiny envelope hidden in a cupboard lay the few coins she had scraped together: a slice of her modest state pension, a part of Tommys child benefit, and the occasional earnings from helping neighbours sweep their driveways. It wont cover much, but it will buy a decent coat and if theres less left for medicine this month, God will look after us, she whispered.
The next morning they boarded a bus and headed for the city. Tommy was jittery; he rarely ventured into the centre and could hardly recall the last time hed stepped into a proper clothing shop.
Gran, will we have enough money? he asked, peering through the fogged window.
Dont worry, love, well manage. The important thing is you dont freeze this winter, she replied, clutching the purse that held her wallet.
The city centre greeted them with bustling streets, illuminated shop fronts, and hurried strangers lugging shopping bags. Ethel held Tommys hand as if fearing someone might snatch him away.
Inside a clothing store, soft music floated from the speakers, bright lights bathed rows of jackets, and a blue, fluffy coat hung from a rack.
Look, Gran, how lovely! Tommy exclaimed.
Ethel smiled, her heart tightening. She lifted the coat, turned it over, checked the price tag. For a heartbeat her legs went limp the amount far exceeded what shed imagined. She set the coat back, hiding a flash of disappointment.
Its beautiful, Gran but lets keep looking. Maybe theres something better, she murmured, covering the high figure with a gentle tone.
They drifted from shop to shop, each displaying hefty price tags, polite smiles, and glances that brushed past the modest garments of the old woman and the threadbare boots of the boy. After two hours, Ethels feet ached and her heart throbbed with worry.
What if I dont have enough? What if another winter passes with that torn coat? she thought, squeezing her purse tighter.
Gran, Im a bit hungry, Tommy said softly, as if fearing the last pennies might vanish.
Right, love, weve been wandering the shops since dawn. Lets pop into the bap shop for a warm doughnut. Itll warm our minds a little.
The little shop on the corner displayed doughnuts that shone like tiny golden suns on a cold day. A young woman behind the counter, cheeks pink, offered a courteous smile.
Good morning, what can I get you?
Tommy stood on tiptoe, his forehead almost touching the glass.
Look, Gran, how lovely they are!
Ethel reached for her purse, only to find it empty. She fumbled, unzipped the larger zip, then the smaller, turned the bag inside out a handkerchief, a tiny icon, some keys but no wallet. Her breath caught.
No this cant be, she whispered, feeling the ground slip from under her.
The baker stared, puzzled; Tommys eyes widened. The street outside continued its indifferent flow.
Gran, what happened?
I Ive lost my wallet, love its gone.
In that instant something inside the old woman cracked. All the money earmarked for the coat, for food, for medicine vanished. She didnt know when or where; perhaps in a shop, perhaps on the bus, perhaps on the pavement. Tears welled, threatening to spill. She wanted to flee, to hide in an alley and weep like a child. Yet Tommy stood beside her, stomach empty, eyes fixed on the steaming doughnuts.
Then Ethel did something she had never imagined she would. She lifted her gaze to the baker, shame flooding her cheeks, and said in a low, trembling voice, Madam please dont be angry with me could I have one of those lovely doughnuts? Ive lost my wallet and the boy is very hungry. I promise to pay when I find it or when my pension arrives.
Silence hung. The bakers hand froze for a heartbeat, then she looked them over more closely. She saw their modest clothing, Tommys worn boots, Ethels callused hands. Something shifted within her.
Without a word, she slipped two large doughnuts into a paper bag and handed it to the old woman.
Here you are, love. On the house. And two more for later.
I cant accept it isnt right, Ethel protested, tears now flowing freely.
Its better than sending the child away hungry, the baker replied simply. My own gran raised me alone. If shed asked for a doughnut, Id have given it without a second thought.
Tommy grasped the bag with both hands as if it were treasure.
Thank you, maam, he whispered.
They stepped back onto the cold street, doughnuts warm in their hands, their spirits bruised but not broken. Ethel felt guilty, powerless. What kind of grandmother am I, if I cant even buy that coat? she thought, the tears stinging her eyes.
They sat on a bench beneath the shop. Tommy nibbled the doughnut slowly, while Ethel stared into the void.
Gran, well save again, I promise. The coat will hold a little longer
No, love. Its not right for you to shiver in winter. I should have looked after you better
Her voice cracked, her hands pressed together in a silent prayer. For the first time she didnt know what to do, had no plan, only cold, shame, and pain.
And just when the world seemed to have forgotten them, a voice called out from behind.
Excuse me!
Ethel turned. A man in his forties, wearing an expensive coat but with kind eyes, hurried forward, clutching a small black object.
Pardon me, are you the lady who tried on the coats a half hour ago?
Yes I think so, Ethel replied, bewildered.
You dropped this. It was by the fitting booth. Ive been looking for you. I recognized you from a distance. He held out a leather wallet.
Ethels heart leapt. She took it with trembling fingers, opened it, and found all her pennies intact, even the faded photograph of her late daughter smiling from a tiny plastic frame.
Oh dear, thank you I thought everything was gone the money and my hope.
He smiled. I manage the shop you were in. Not everyone takes what isnt theirs. Some people return it. He glanced at Tommy, who clutched his doughnut like a relic.
Is he your grandson?
Yes, his name is Tommy. I raise him alone.
The man nodded slowly, as if understanding more than words could say. I saw him eye that blue coat on the righthand rack. The one with the hood.
Ethel lowered her gaze. Its beautiful, but its pricey, sir. We need bread as well as a coat
He said something that would change their day, and little by little, their lives.
Madam, do me a favour. Go back into the shop and take that coat for him. Ill pay for it.
Ethel froze. I cant how could I?
He raised his hand, stopping her. You can. When I was a child, my grandmother raised me alone. She never could afford new things. I know the shame of standing before a window, feeling your pockets empty. Let me do this for you, for him, for both of us.
Her eyes welled again, this time with gratitude. Sir I have no words.
No words needed. Just take the coat and tell Tommy that good people still exist. Remind him not to forget that when he grows up.
Tommy, who had listened with the intensity of a fleabitten heart, squeezed the mans hand. Thank you, sir. Ill look after that coat all my life, he said with the solemn seriousness of someone far older than his years.
The man smiled broadly. Take care of your soul, too. Coats wear out, but what you do for others will never fade.
They returned to the shop. The baker recognized the blue coat and smiled as Tommy slipped it on; it fit him perfectly, as if it had been made for his shoulders. Ethel stared, feeling years melt away, a youthful glow returning to her cheeks.
When they stepped out, the sky no longer seemed as grey. Tommy tucked his hands into the new pockets, hopping merrily down the pavement, while Aunt Ethel watched him with deep, lingering gratitude.
Gran, you know what I think? Tommy declared, voice firm.
Whats that, love?
That God wanted you to lose the wallet so wed meet these kind people. Otherwise wed never have known the baker or the gentleman.
Ethel chuckled, squeezing his hand. Perhaps youre right, Tommy. Sometimes the biggest trouble is merely the road to a miracle.
They passed the bakery once more. The baker waved. Tommy grinned and lifted the bag with the two remaining doughnuts, a silent salute of thanks.
That night, back at their modest flat, Ethel tucked Tommy into bed and kissed his forehead.
Never forget today, love. Not for the coat or the doughnuts, but for the people who helped us when we were lost.
I wont, he whispered.
And perhaps, years later, when Tommy sees a child shivering at a shop window or an elder with a vacant stare, hell recall the blue coat, the warm doughnuts, the cold bench, and the strange, dreamlike logic that stitched those moments together. Then hell reach out and say,
Madam, sir please dont be angry with me may I pay it forward.
Because the kindness that saved one cold November day will keep warming winters for others.
