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«Некрасивий»

— Оленко, не можна! — Голос матері різко зупинив рух дівчинки, її маленька рука завмерла в повітрі. — Не чіпай його, відійди! Подивись, який він некрасивий!

Рудий кіт, якого щойно гладила Оленка, ображено глянув на жінку, зітхнув і відійшов вбік. Він часто чув ці слова. Занадто часто.

Кіт дійсно виглядав так, що люди вважали за краще не помічати його: худий, з виступаючими ребрами, обмороженими вушками й великими, широко поставленими очима, повними смутку.

На лавці неподалік сидів Микола. Почув голос жінки. Оглянувся. Знайшов поглядом кота і… неначе побачив себе з боку.

Некрасивий.

Слово, яке переслідувало його все життя. Сьогодні він знову почув його — але вже про себе.

— Миколо, він добрий, розумний, але… ну ви тільки уявіть, які у нього будуть діти!

Дівчата сміялися. Серед них була Марина. Микола завмер. Її голос проник у саму душу.
Він не любив дивитися в дзеркало.

Що там можна було побачити? Відстовбурчені вуха? Веснянки, хаотично розкидані по всьому обличчю? Очі, зменшені лінзами окулярів з сильною діоптрією?

Ні, він точно не був тим, кого називають гарним.

Але зараз йому було образливо не за себе. А за кота.

«Я хоча б знаю, що у мене є майбутнє. Хай не таке, як хотілося б. А у тебе? У тебе немає нічого…»

Він спустив ноги з лавки, і кіт насторожився, готовий до втечі. Але замість грубого окрику почув:

— Ну що, друже? Один сидиш? Давай разом мерзнути.

Кіт завмер. Людський голос, звернений до нього… доброзичливо?

Таке бувало рідко. Занадто рідко.

Але Микола простягнув руку, і кіт не відступив.

— Ми з тобою схожі, знаєш? Тебе не гладять, мене не запрошують у компанії. Але… знаєш, що найстрашніше? Що, здається, самотність триватиме все життя.

Кіт дивився йому в очі. І раптом тихенько, невпевнено нявкнув:

— Але ж ти покликав мене…

Поворот, який змінив усе

— Ти, напевно, голодний?

Голодний. Завжди.

— Зачекай мене тут. Я зараз дістану щось.

— Ні! — Кіт рушив уперед. — Я піду з тобою!

Вони дійшли до магазину разом. Микола зник у дверях, а кіт залишився зовні, чекаючи.

Коли він вийшов, ніхто не проганяв кота. Навпаки, він уперше в житті їв з кимось, не боячись, що його відштовхнуть або кинуть у нього камінь.

Випадкова трапеза зламала стіну недовіри.

— Ну що, смачно?

Кіт замуркотів. Микола відчув, як усередині раптом стає тепліше.

Він простягнув руку і обережно погладив його. Кіт не здригнувся. Не відштовхнувся. Навпаки, притулився спиною до нього, ніби все життя чекав цієї миті.

— Знаєш, мені здається, ти зовсім не потворний, — усміхнувся Микола.

Кіт подивився на нього.

— А ти — не такий, як вони кажуть.

І тоді почувся голос…

— Дурник ти, Миколо.

Він здригнувся. Впізнав голос.

Обернувся.

Марина.

Стояла позаду, тримаючи в руці яскраву парасольку. Нахилила її, прикриваючи від дощу Миколу й кота.

— Не треба, Марино, — він похитав головою. — Я чув, як ти сміялася разом з ними.

Дівчина похитала головою.

— Ти не чув, що сказала я.

— Ну так, мабуть, щось на кшталт «який він смішний»…

— Ні, — її голос був дивно спокійний. — Я сказала, що хотіла б мати купу дітей. І щоб їхнім татом був ти.

Микола завмер.

— Мінімум троє, — продовжила Марина. — Двох хлопчиків і дівчинку.

Кіт висунув голову з-під куртки.

— І кота! — нявкнув він.

Марина розсміялася.

— Обов’язково кота.

Щастя – це коли тебе люблять, навіть якщо ти «некрасивий»

— Лізь під куртку, дощ починається.

Кіт юркнув у тепло.

Микола подивився на нього, потім на Марину.

А тоді раптом зрозумів, що його душа… гріється.

А ти впевнений, що бачиш людей такими, якими вони є? Чи… якими тобі кажуть, що вони повинні бути?

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