З життя
Сумнi думки крiзь дощовi потоки на вiкнi.
Бабуся Олена сиділа біля вікна, сумно спостерігаючи, як дощові краплі стікають по склу. Третій день іде дощ, третій день небо плаче, ніби не має спокою. Прямо як моє життя, одні сльози і більше нічого доброго. Для чого жила? Для чого по землі ходила? Щоб страждати? Одна тепер, зовсім одна, на всьому білому світі нікого, жодного рідного. Вчора знову її обманули. Прийшли дві дівчини, гарні, подарунки почали роздавати, задурили голову і залишили без копійки. Ну як не повіриш? Вони ж люди, не безсовісні звірі. Цього разу знову обманули, а я все вірю людям. Та що там казати, все життя обманювали. У бабусі Олени по щоках покотилися сльози. Не щастило їй у житті. Чоловік пияк, помер. Сина посадили, там і зник. Усе здоров’я віддала заводові, за копійки та грамоти. Скільки разів людям допомагала, а що у замін, тільки обман і сльози. Бабуся Олена підійшла до холодильника. Як тепер до пенсії дожити. Ще цілих десять днів. Навіть на хліб дрібниць немає. Позичати у сусідів? Ні, ніколи не позичала і не буду.
У холодильнику лежали два сирих яйця, пів пляшки молока і чвертинка батона. Ні, сьогодні не буду їсти, завтра поїм. Або, можливо, одне яйце сьогодні, друге завтра. Ні. Краще обидва завтра. Бабуся Олена знову сіла біля вікна. Погляд впав на сміттєвий контейнер. Ні, ніколи вона не піде до смітника, який же це сором. Що люди подумають… Краще лягти і померти одразу. Сльози самі собою потекли по зморщеному обличчю.
У двері подзвонили. Бабуся Олена пішла відчиняти. — Йду, йду. Хто там? — витираючи сльози, запитала вона. — Це я, Іван, бабусю Олено, — пролунав тихий голос за дверима. — Ваню, — відчинивши двері, зраділа бабуся, — Ваню мій приїхав! Іван, колишній сусідський хлопчик, з яким вона часто возилася і наглядала за ним, поки його батьки були зайняті. Багато років його приводили до бабусі Олени. Спочатку приводили, а потім він сам став приходити й проводити з нею більшу частину свого часу. Іван для неї став як рідний син. Коли Ваня виріс, то поїхав кудись далеко щастя шукати. А тепер повернувся та відразу до неї, до бабусі Олени.
— Заходь, Ваню, заходь, — заметушилася бабуся Олена, — от порадував. — А ти що, плакала, бабусю Олено? — знімаючи куртку, запитав Іван. — Ну що ти, Ваню… Чого мені плакати… Задрімала я…
— Я тепер свою фірму в наше місто перевожу, так що тепер часто бачитися будемо. Та що з тобою, бабусю Олено? Знову сльози на обличчі.
Бабуся Олена похитнулася й уперлася рукою в стіну. — Це від радості, Ваню, від радості. Голова щось закрутилася. Іван підхопив бабусю, посадив на стілець і пройшов прямо до холодильника.
— Тепер я бачу від якої радості у тебе голова кружиться, — почула вона незадоволений голос Івана.
Через пів години Іван приніс два пакети з продуктами і почав годувати бабусю Олену. Він підливав бабусі чай і розповідав про своє життя. А вона, зніяковіло посміхаючись, дивилася на стіл, завалений продуктами, та потайки витирала сльози. Ну звідки вони лише беруться, ці сльози? Так вони проговорили до самого вечора. Коли Іван йшов, у бабусі Олени затремтіли губи, і вона намагалася щось сказати. — Що? Що, бабусю Олено? — запитав Іван. — Сину, — прошепотіла бабуся. — Бабусю Олено, — обняв він стареньку, — ніколи я тепер тебе не залишу. Тепер я буду завжди поруч. Іван пішов, а бабуся Олена сіла на своє улюблене місце біля вікна і знову заплакала. Тільки сльози ці були зовсім інші.
— А я вже, грішною справою, про людей почала погано думати, — говорить сама до себе старенька. — Хіба можна про людей погано думати? Он Ваню мій яким став. І гроші його зовсім не зіпсували. Все такий же добрий і уважний. Як приїхав, одразу до мене. Не забув стару. Рідніше Вані у мене нікого немає. Мов рідний син. Тепер і вмирати не хочеться. Пожити ще хочеться…
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You Don’t Deserve It — “After my divorce, I thought I’d never trust anyone again,” Andrew admitted, fidgeting with his empty espresso cup. His voice cracked and wavered so convincingly that Kate found herself leaning closer. “You know, when someone betrays you, you lose a part of yourself. She left me with wounds I thought would never heal… I honestly didn’t think I’d survive.” Andrew’s stories poured out for a long time: about his wife who never appreciated him, the pain that wouldn’t let go, the fear of starting over. Each word settled in Kate’s heart like a warm little stone. She imagined herself as the woman who could restore his faith in love—how they’d heal his scars together, how he’d realize true happiness was possible with her by his side. He first mentioned Max on their second date, casually dropped in between dessert and coffee… — “I have a son, by the way. He’s seven. Lives with his mum, but stays with me every weekend. The court said so.” — “That’s wonderful!” Kate beamed. “Children are a blessing.” She started daydreaming: Saturday morning breakfasts for three, trips to the park, TV evenings together. The boy needed a woman’s care, a mother’s warmth. She could become a second mum—not a replacement, but someone close, someone family… — “Are you sure you don’t mind?” Andrew watched her with a crooked smile she mistook for wariness at the time. “A lot of women run when they hear about a kid.” — “I’m not most women,” she said proudly. Her first weekend with Max was a celebration. Kate made blueberry pancakes—his absolute favourite, as Andrew had tipped her off. Patiently, she helped him through his maths homework. She washed his dinosaur T-shirt, pressed his school uniform, made sure he was in bed by nine sharp. — “You should have a rest,” she told Andrew after he’d sprawled out on the sofa with the remote. “I’ve got this covered.” Andrew nodded—or so it seemed then, gratefully. But now she realized it was the nod of a man taking his due. Time marched on. Kate worked as a logistics manager, out by eight, home after seven. Decent salary by London standards—enough for two. But there were three. — “Hold-up on site again,” Andrew would say as if announcing a hurricane, “Client’s pulled out. But there’s a big contract coming, I promise.” The “big contract” hovered on the horizon for a year and a half, sometimes getting closer, mostly never arriving. But the bills always came—rent, utilities, internet, groceries, child support for Marina, new trainers for Max, school contributions. Kate paid all of them, quietly. She skimped on lunches, brought in tupperware pasta, walked home in the rain to save on cabs. She hadn’t had a manicure in a year—did her own nails and tried not to remember the luxury of professional treatments. Three years, and Andrew had given her flowers exactly three times. Kate remembered each bouquet—cheap roses from the convenience kiosk near their tube stop, droopy and with snapped-off thorns. Probably on special offer… The first was an apology after Andrew called her hysterical in front of Max. The second came after an argument about a friend who visited unannounced. The third, when he missed her birthday because he lingered with mates—simply forgot. — “Andrew, I don’t want expensive gifts,” she tried to keep her voice gentle. “Just… sometimes I’d like to know you’re thinking of me. Even a card…” His face contorted instantly. — “So it’s all about money for you, is it? Presents? Don’t you care about love? Or what I’ve been through?” — “That’s not what—” — “You don’t deserve it.” Andrew spat the words at her like dirt. “After all I do for you, you still complain.” She fell silent. She always did—it made things easier. Easier to live, to breathe, to pretend everything was fine. Yet, for mates’ nights, Andrew always found cash. Pubs, football at the local, café Thursdays. He’d come home tipsy, reeking of sweat and cigarettes, flop onto the bed without noticing Kate was still awake. She convinced herself this was how love worked. Love meant sacrifice. Love meant patience. He would change, surely. She just had to be even more attentive, love even harder—after all, look at what he’d suffered… Talk of marriage became a minefield. — “We’re happy as we are, why do we need a piece of paper?” Andrew waved the question away like a pesky fly. “After what happened with Marina, I need time.” — “It’s been three years, Andrew. That’s a long time.” — “Now you’re pressuring me—always pressuring!” He stormed off, ending the conversation. Kate longed for children of her own. She was twenty-eight, the ticking biological clock growing louder each month. But Andrew wasn’t interested in a second round of fatherhood—he had a son, and that was enough for him. Then came that Saturday—she asked for just one day. One day. — “The girls are inviting me over. We haven’t seen each other in ages. I’ll be back by evening.” Andrew looked at her as though she’d announced she was emigrating. — “And Max?” — “He’s your son, Andrew. Spend the day with him.” — “So you’re abandoning us? On a Saturday? When I’m expecting to relax?” She blinked. In three years she’d never left them alone. Never asked for a day to herself. She cooked, cleaned, tutored homework, washed, ironed—while holding a full-time job. — “I just want to see my friends. It’s only a few hours… And he’s your son. Can’t you spend a day with him on your own?” — “You’re supposed to love my child as much as me!” Andrew suddenly roared. “You live in my flat, eat my food, and now you’ve got the nerve to make demands?!” His flat. His food. Kate paid the rent. Kate bought the food. Three years supporting a man who yelled at her for wanting to spend a day with her friends. She looked at Andrew—twisted face, throbbing temples, fists clenched—and saw him for the first time. Not as a wounded soul, not a helpless victim in need of rescue, but an adult who had learned to expertly exploit kindness. Kate, to him, was not a beloved partner, not a future wife. She was a walking wallet and a live-in maid. That was all. When Andrew left to drop Max back to Marina, Kate took out her suitcase. Her hands moved calmly, no shakes, no doubts. Passport. Mobile. Charger. A couple of shirts and jeans. The rest could be bought later. The rest didn’t matter. She left no note. What could she explain to a man who never valued her? The door closed behind her quietly, no fuss, no drama. The calls started within an hour—one, then another, then a barrage—a shrill, endless trill that made her phone quiver. — “Kate, where are you?! What’s going on?! You’ve gone, there’s no dinner! Am I supposed to go hungry now? What the hell?!” She listened—his voice angry, demanding, full of righteous indignation—and marvelled. Even now, as she’d left, Andrew thought only of himself. How inconvenient this was. Who would make his tea? No “sorry”. No “what happened”. Just “how dare you”. Kate blocked his number. Blocked him on Messenger. On every social platform—brick by brick, she built herself a wall. Three years. Three years with someone who never loved her. Who used her empathy as a disposable resource. Who convinced her that self-sacrifice was love. But that’s not love. Love doesn’t humiliate. Love doesn’t reduce someone to a servant. Kate walked through the twilight streets of London and for the first time in ages, she could breathe. She vowed she’d never again confuse love with self-neglect. Never again give herself away to those who prey on pity. And always, always choose herself. Just herself.
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