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The Day I Realized I Was Living with a Monster
The day I realised Id been living with a monster.
For eleven years, I thought I had a family. A wife, two kids, a home, a life thatfrom the outsidelooked completely normal. We had dinner together, handled the daily chores, went to the kids school events. A perfect routine.
But deep down, I knew something was wrong.
Somewhere along the way, my wife and I stopped being a couple. We werent partners, we werent in love. We werent even enemies. Just two strangers sharing the same house, tied together by responsibilities. We didnt argue, but we didnt talk either. Our conversations became mechanicalbills, groceries, the kids schedules.
And I got used to it. Because it was easy.
Until I met *her*.
A different woman. Warm, alive, full of life. A woman who looked at me like I was the only man in the world. I tried to lie to myself, told myself it was just a passing attraction, a silly fling.
But the fire inside me didnt go out.
Soon, she became my refuge, my escape from a life that was suffocating me. We hid, stole moments together. And for the first time in years, I felt alive.
But secrets dont stay hidden forever. One evening, after wed made love, she looked me in the eye and said:
*”I dont want to be hidden forever. Either were together properly, or I walk away now.”*
Her words echoed in my head for days. I knew I couldnt avoid the inevitable any longer.
**The conversation that ruined my life.**
That night, after the kids were asleep, I walked into the kitchen and sat at the table. My wife was there, scrolling on her phone, barely noticing me.
I cleared my throat. *”We need to talk.”*
She sighed and looked up at me, bored.
*”I cant live like this anymore,”* I said. *”I dont love you. Havent for a long time. I want a fresh start. But Ill always be there for the kids.”*
I expected shouting. Tears. Accusations.
What she did was so much worse.
She didnt say a word. Just stood up slowly, walked to the hallway cupboard, and pulled out two large suitcases.
Then she dropped them in front of me.
*”Take them,”* she said, voice icy.
I blinked, confused. *”I dont need that much. A backpacks enough.”*
And then she smiled. Not a sad smile, not an angry one. A strange, calculated smile, full of a satisfaction I didnt understand.
*”You said youd take care of the kids, right?”* she whispered. *”Then Ill pack for them too. From now on, youre the family.”*
I felt my breath stop.
*”What what are you saying?”*
She leaned against the doorframe, arms crossed, studying me like she was waiting for me to collapse.
*”Im done with this life. Ive been a good wife. Ive sacrificed enough. Now its my turn. Ill find someone else. And without kids, itll be so much easier.”*
I froze.
*”Youre joking.”*
She let out a short laugh.
*”You thought I didnt know? That I didnt notice you coming home later? That you stopped looking at me? I knew. I always knew. I was just waiting for the right moment.”*
She pulled out her phone, tapped a quick message, and smiled againbut not at me.
In that moment, I understood.
I thought *I* was the one making decisions. But shed already made them for both of us. I was playing chess, and shed already moved the queen, leaving me with no moves left.
**Trapped in a nightmare I cant wake up from.**
And now, here I am.
One woman is asking me to choose. The other has already chosen for me.
Do I take my kids and knock on my lovers door, praying she wont turn me away? Or do I stay here, in a house thats no longer mine, with the woman who just showed me her darkest side?
I dont know the right answer.
Maybe there isnt one.
But one thing I do know.
For eleven years, I thought I knew my wife.
Tonight, I realised Id been living with a monster.
