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— What are you up to, Granddad? Fancy a stroll? At your age, I’d be staying in!
20October2025
I set off early this morning, the wind biting my cheeks as I trudged along the lonely lane that skirts the A61 out of Harrogate. My breath fogged in the cold, but I didnt linger. In my left hand I clutched the old wicker basket that has accompanied me for years, its rim worn smooth; in my right hand I lifted another, ready to flag down any passing motorist that might give me a lift into Leeds.
It isnt my first time walking this stretch. Ever since Ethel fell ill and was admitted to StJamess Hospital, Ive grown accustomed to the dusty road, the endless waiting, the hope that each car might be the one that carries me to her bedside. Yet today something felt different, as if my heart were beating a little faster.
Ethels condition had taken a turn for the worse just as the night shift nurse warned me, Youd better come and see her, George. When anyone tells you that a visit is worth it, it feels as though the ground slips from under you. I slipped out of the house without a second thought, grabbing a clean shirt, a towel, a few apples, and a bottle of plum compote that Ethel had canned years ago and labelled, For when George is ill. That small jar has been my way of telling her I havent forgotten, that I still remember every tremor of her hands as she packed the jars onto the pantry shelf.
Cars rolled by now and then, but none stopped. Some drivers glanced at me as if I were a weathered scarecrow, others stared at their phones, some laughed and hurried on as if there was no time for an old man with a basket. Then a van slowed, the engine humming low. My pulse surged. Thats it, I thought. I stepped forward, clutching the basket to my chest. The passenger window rolled down and a young, slightly amused face peered out.
What are you doing out here, old chap? Taking a stroll? he said with a teasing lilt.
His tone was light, but the joke cut deep. I opened my mouth to explain, Im not on a walk. Im heading to my wife shes ill Before I could finish, the driver slammed the accelerator and sped off, leaving only a cloud of dust and a heavy silence in his wake.
For a moment I felt the whole road strike my chest. I stared at my gnarled hands, my battered boots, the battered basket. Maybe I look the part of a man who has nothing left to do on the road, I muttered, throat tight.
Then I recalled Ethels eyes, the way she searched the hospital corridor for me, the way she’d ask, Did you get here? Are you with me? Through the years and the wrinkles, in her gaze I still saw the lively girl Id danced with at the village fête many summers ago.
Our love never counted miles or lines on the facejust the steady beating of two hearts.
I stood my ground. Im not leaving, Ethel, I whispered to the empty air. You were waiting for me. How could I not come?
Time dragged on. Grey clouds gathered, turning the sky a dull slate. The wind grew harsher; I pulled my coat tighter, feeling my bones creak from the chill and age, but I stayed put.
Every now and then a headlight swept across my tired face, a brief flash of illumination before darkness swallowed it again.
Memories flooded inEthel feeding me warm bread after a long day in the fields, her staying up through sleepless nights making tea and cold compresses, our playful quarrels where Id laugh, Leave me be, love, Im not going to be knocked down by anything. Now she was the one who seemed frail, and all I could offer was my hand, no medicine, no education, just love. Sometimes love is the only remedy left.
As dusk settled, a car finally pulled up and its headlights blinded me for a heartbeat. The drivers door opened and a figure in a white coat, a navy jacket over it, stepped out.
MrGeorge? the voice was familiar.
Yes Im, I answered hesitantly.
DrPowell, the physician looking after Ethel, regarded me with a mixture of surprise and sorrow.
What brings you out here in this cold? he asked.
Im coming to see Ethel nobody else would take me, and Ive run out of patience He sighed heavily. He had seen me many times in the hospital corridors, basket in hand, eyes fixed on the ward door, hands trembling when Ethels condition worsened, brightening when a nurse said, Shes a little better today.
Come on, please. I wont let you stand here.
He took the basket from my grasp as if it were a precious cargo and opened the car door.
On me? I asked, incredulous.
Yes, MrGeorge. Im heading to the hospital as well. Ill drive you.
When I settled into the seat, a warmth spread through me like an embrace. For the first time that day, tears slipped silently down my cheeks as I watched the countryside rush past.
DrPowell said nothing about why I hadnt taken the bus or why Id stood there for hours. He knew that sometimes questions wound deeper than the frost.
Doctor, I said softly, Ethel still talks about you. She says you have good hands.
He gave a faint smile. She has a good heart, thats why she sees the good in everything.
The rest of the journey was quiet. I clutched the basket to my chest, wiping at the corner of my eye with my sleeve. I thought perhaps God had not forgotten an old man on the roadside; perhaps among all the cars that passed without seeing me, the one that stopped was the very one that cared for my wife.
Inside the bright, long hospital hallway, I felt less like a pathetic old bloke on a deserted lane and more like a husband keeping a promise: Ill come to you, no matter what.
Ethel saw me at once. Her tired eyes lit up, just as they did when she waited for me after a days work in the fields.
You came she whispered.
Of course, love How could I not? I replied, setting the basket down and pulling out the plum compote Id kept all these years.
I brought you that jar of plum compote you made for when Im ill, George. Now youre the one whos unwell, but well make it through this together.
She gave a weak smile, a single tear sparkling not from pain but gratitude.
In that moment all the cold, the refusals, the sharp words of the young driver vanished. I realised something vital:
The world is full of people who rush past without noticing, but all it takes is one kind soul to remind you that you havent been left on the side of the road. Love doesnt need a thumbout; it finds its own way through the chill, the tiredness, the time.
And it always ends up where it belongs: at her hospital bedside, in her weary gaze, in the heart that still beats for me.
Tomorrow, when I see an older person with a hand outstretched on the curb, I will remember that I could be that driver who stops, not the one who kicks up dust. That is the lesson I take from today.
