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When the Key Turned in the Lock, His Heart Nearly Leapt from His Chest and His Soul Raced to Meet He…
When the key turned in the lock, my heart nearly leapt out of my chest, and it felt as if my soul rushed out to meet her
How many times can I mess this up? The mistakes I made seemed so foolish! Look at this! Just look! Miss Charlotte Ashcroft jabbed the monthly report with her perfectly manicured finger so hard, I thought shed snap her nail. Go on! Do it again, and if you cant manage even that, hand in your resignation! My boss was usually an attractive, well-groomed woman, but when she lost her temper, it felt like staring down a demon.
I left the office in silence. There was just over an hour left before the end of the workday. I had to get it finished, even though I knew the bonus had already slipped through my fingers.
Life lately felt like one never-ending rough patch, made worse by every obstacle imaginable. Just last week, Id rung my mum as usual, only for her to fly off the handle over absolutely nothing, blaming me for everything under the sun and slamming the phone down. No matter how many times it happened, I couldnt get used to it. The guilt ate away at me, and now I barely had the nerve to call her at all.
Two days ago, Id lost my bank card and had to block it and order a replacement.
Yesterday, the only living soul to keep me companyMittens, my three-coloured one-year-old catclimbed out onto the balcony after a bird and fell from the third floor. I saw her get up from the squashed flowerbed, brush herself off and stroll away, but by the time I got downstairs, shed vanished. It had been nearly 24 hours, and no sign of her; she didnt answer to my calls, and it left me more alone than ever.
By some miracle, I finished that damned report and went home. I couldnt even bring myself to stop by the shop.
When I got in, I flung myself onto the sofa and sobbeddeep, wrenching tears. Half an hour later, with my face hot and dry, I felt no relief. Dark, slithering thoughts crept in: Who am I living for? My mother doesnt care, Ive no family of my own, even the cats disappeared. Thinking on it, strangely, gave me a small comfortlike letting go of everything would finally set me free. Let them snap their fingers in regretwholl care then? I thought bitterly. But itll be too late.
A weight lifted, just knowing I wouldnt have to go into work tomorrow. No awkward phone calls pleading with my mum for forgiveness over things Id never done. For a moment, mad joy bubbled up in me.
Then, with just one step left to take, my phone rang. An unknown number flashed up. I almost didnt answer, but wonderedwhat if this was the last human voice I heard?
Hello Silence. Well? Why call if youre not going to speak? Annoyance prickled at me.
Good evening The voice, low and male, finally came through. Please, dont hang up.
Who is this? What do you want? I had pressing matters at hand and couldnt be bothered with some stranger.
I just wanted to hear another persons voice Its been a week since I spoke to anyone. I thought, if no one answered, well, that would be the end of it he said, catching his breath.
You mean you cant go out? Why not take a walk in the park? Its easy enough! I curled my feet up onto the broad windowsill.
I cant. I live on the fifth floor My wife left last week His voice faded to nearly nothing.
Id have left too, if I were her! Honestly, are you a man or not? I could hardly understand what his problem was.
Im in a wheelchair. Not quite a year now. Five floors, and no lifttheres no chance I could manage it. His voice sounded stronger.
You dont have legs? I blurted, horrified, then immediately regretted it.
No, its a spinal injury. I just cant walk anymore. There was a quiet sigh, and, I fancied, a smile.
We talked for another half hour. I took his address, and within the hour, I was at his door, juggling two huge bags.
A young, handsome man opened the door. He was in a wheelchair.
Im Emily! I realised just then I didnt even know his name.
Oliver, he replied, smiling with such warmth and hope youd think hed waited his whole life to see me.
It turned out, we didnt live that far from each other at all. I ended up visiting every day. It didnt take long to realise that, compared to his troubles, mine were barely worth a second thought. All the little things that made me desperate to give up now seemed so insignificant. I found myself changingcaring for Oliver made me stronger, more determined, more stubborn when it counted.
Then, as if by magic, Mittens reappearedwaiting patiently on the doormat for me to return from work.
At the office, Miss Charlotte was her usual self, ready to take out the mornings frustrations on me. I didnt even let her begin: Miss Ashcroft, what right have you to shout at me and humiliate me like this? I cant work in this constant atmosphere of stress. If I get a migraine, Ill be off sick. Who will you find to replace me? The girls in the department burst out giggling, and the boss just turned and walked away, speechless.
Then, my mum finally rang; she couldnt hold out in silence any longer. Hello, love! Why have you not called? Dont you care about your mother at all? Youre so cold! Ungrateful! Emily, Im talking to you! Her voice rose to a yell.
Hello, Mum. Im not going to keep talking if you use that tone. I kept my voice calm and steady.
How dare you! Ill hang up! she shrieked.
Go on, then I replied indifferently.
Two days later, she called again. No apologiesit wasnt her stylebut at least we spoke normally.
A month later, I moved in with Oliver and started letting my flat out. Our friendship quietly blossomed into something more: tenderness, trust, gratitude Surely, this was how love began.
With the money from renting out my place, I hired a physiotherapist and got Oliver into the swimming pool at weekends. Joy of joys, he slowly started regaining feeling in his legshe could even wiggle his toes.
When my mum fell ill, I took two days off and went to care for her.
Oliver counted the hours until I returned. Like a loyal pup, he lay on the sofa day after day, waiting.
It was February. That day, a wild snowstorm battered the streets. He knew when my bus was due; hed calculated just how long it should take for me to get home and up the stairs. Every deadline passed, and still, I hadnt arrived. Oliver wheeled himself over to the window.
Outside, not a thing could be seen. The world was a swirling white wall. My phone was off; the battery dead hours ago. One hour passed. Then two. Then three
Thenat lastthe key turned in the lock. His heart soared, and his spirit raced out to greet her.
Olly, the bus got stuck in a drift, we had to wait for the council gritters My phone died ages ago! she called out, dropping her coat in the hallOliver! She rushed in and froze.
He was standing, just two steps from his wheelchair, a beaming smile on his face.
That night taught me this: sometimes, at your lowest ebb, just one human voiceand one act of kindnesscan change absolutely everything.
