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You’re Not the Mistress — You’re the Help
You’re not the mistress of the houseyoure just the servant, my motherinlaw, Agnes Whitaker, said, her voice as sweet as jam yet cutting like hot sauce, searing through the pretense.
I gave a silent nod and lifted the almost empty bowl of salad. The ladymy husband Simons thirdcousinonceremoved, a selfstyled aristocratshot me a glare as if I were an annoying fly that had been buzzing over her head for ten minutes.
I slipped through the kitchen like a ghost, trying to be invisible. It was Simons birthday, or rather, the day his family chose to celebrate his birthday in my flatthe flat whose rent I paid.
Laughter bubbled from the sittingroom in uneven waves: the brassy chuckle of Uncle Terry, the sharp bark of his wifes terrier, and above it all the firm, almost commanding tone of Agnes Whitaker. Simon must have been lurking somewhere in a corner, a strained smile stretched across his face as he nodded timidly.
I filled the salad bowl, garnishing it with a sprig of dill. My hands moved on autopilot while a single number spun in my head: twenty. Twenty million.
The night before, after receiving the final confirmation in my email, I had crouched on the bathroom floor, hidden from everyones eyes, staring at my phone. The project I had nurtured for three yearshundreds of sleepless nights, endless negotiations, tears and nearhopeless attemptshad boiled down to a single figure on the screen. Seven zeros. My freedom.
Where are you hiding? Agnes snapped. The guests are waiting!
I carried the bowl back into the hall. The party was in full swing.
Youre as slow as molasses, Poppy, my auntwhod pushed her own plate asidesaid, smirking. Just a turtle, thats what you are.
Simon flinched but kept quiet. He never liked a scene, his favourite life principle.
I set the salad down. Adjusting the perfect arrangement, Agnes shouted loudly enough for everyone to hear: What can you do? Not everyone is born quick. Working in an office isnt the same as running a household. There you sit at a computer and go home. Here you must think, improvise, hustle.
She swept the room with a victorious glance; everyone nodded. Heat rose to my cheeks.
Reaching for an empty glass, I brushed a fork off the table. It clanged as it hit the floor.
Silence fell. For a heartbeat everyone froze, eyes darting from the fork to me.
Agnes burst into a harsh, poisonous laugh. See? I told you! Her hands are clumsy.
She turned to the woman beside her, voice still sharp, and added, I always told Simon shed never be his equal. In this house youre the master, and she merely background decoration. Bring, fetch, serve. Not the mistressjust the servant.
Laughter erupted again, this time more spiteful. Simon glanced away, pretending to be occupied with a napkin.
I lifted the fork, stood straight, and for the first time that evening let a genuine smile spread across my faceno pretense, no politeness.
They had no idea that the world built on my patience was about to crumble, while mine was just beginning, right then and there.
My smile knocked them off balance. Their mirth died as suddenly as it had begun. Agnes halted midchew, her jaw frozen in disbelief.
Instead of returning the fork to the table, I walked to the kitchen, dropped it into the sink, fetched a clean glass, and poured myself a draught of cherry juicethe very drink Agnes called a frivolous indulgence and a waste of money.
Glass in hand, I slipped back into the sittingroom and took the only vacant seatnext to Simon. He looked at me as if seeing me for the first time.
Poppy, hot drinks cool quickly! Agnes snapped, her steeltoned voice returning. You must keep the guests refreshed.
Simon can handle it, I said, taking a small sip, eyes never leaving hers. Hes the master of this house. Let him prove it.
All eyes turned to Simon. He turned pale, then flushed, stammered, and fled to the kitchen.
It was a tiny, sweet victory. The room grew heavy, the air thick.
Realising a direct attack had failed, Agnes altered her tactics, launching into plans for a country retreat: Well be away in July, the whole family, a month in the Cotswolds. A breath of fresh air.
My dear Poppy, you should start packing next week, move the supplies, ready the house, she said as if the decision had been made ages ago, as if my opinion mattered not at all.
I set my glass down slowly. Sounds lovely, Mrs. Whitaker, but I have other plans this summer.
The words hung in the air like ice cubes on a hot day.
What other plans? Simon returned, balancing a wobbling tray of steaming dishes. What are you dreaming up?
His voice trembled with irritation and bewilderment. My refusal sounded to him like an announcement of war.
Nothing at all, I replied calmly, first to him, then to his mother, whose eyes were now blazing with fury.
I have business plans. Im buying a new flat.
A pause, allowing the effect to settle. The one Im in now is far too cramped.
A deafening silence fell, broken finally by Agness short, croaking laugh. Shes buying? With what money, may I ask? A thirtyyear mortgage? Will she spend her life working on cement walls?
Mothers right, Poppy, Simon rushed to her side, seeking support, as he slammed the tray down, sauce splattering the tablecloth. Stop this circus. Youre disgracing us. What flat? Have you lost your mind?
I scanned the faces of the guests. Each wore a look of disdainful mistrust, as if I were an empty space that had suddenly pretended to be something grand.
Why a mortgage? I asked, smiling softly. No, I dont like debt. Im buying outright.
Uncle Terry, who had been silent till now, snorted. An inheritance, perhaps? Did some American millionaire aunt die?
The guests chuckled, feeling themselves still in control. You could say that, I replied, turning to him. Except the old lady is me, and Im still alive.
I took a sip of juice, giving them time to digest the truth.
Yesterday I sold my projectthe one you all thought I was merely sitting in the office. The startup I built over three years. The deal was twenty million pounds. The money is already in my account. So yes, Im buying a flat, perhaps even a seaside cottage, so Im never cramped again.
A ringing silence settled over the room. Faces stretched, smiles vanished, exposing shock and confusion.
Simon stared, mouth open, eyes wide, no sound escaping him.
Agness complexion drained; her mask crumbled before our eyes.
I rose, grabbed my handbag from the chair. Simon, happy birthday. Heres my gift to you. Im moving out tomorrow. You and your family have a week to find new accommodation. Im selling this flat too.
I headed for the door, hearing no protest. They were paralyzed.
At the threshold I turned and gave one last look. And, Mrs. Whitaker, I said, voice firm and calm, the servant is tired today and needs a rest.
Six months later I was living a new life. I perched on the wide windowsill of my new flat, the city lights of London spilling across the floortoceiling glass like a living creature that no longer seemed hostile.
In my hand was a glass of cherry juice. On my knees rested a laptop, its screen glowing with the schematics of my latest venturean architectural app that had already attracted its first investors.
I worked hard, but now it was a joy, because the work filled me rather than drained me.
For the first time in years I breathed deeply. The constant tension that had haunted me for years faded. The habit of moving quietly, guessing moods, feeling like a guest in my own home disappeared.
After that birthday, the phone never stopped ringing. Simon went through the full cycle: furious threats (Youll regret this! Youre nothing without me!) to plaintive midnight voice messages, whining about how wonderful things used to be. Listening, I felt only cold emptiness. His version of good rested on my silence. The divorce was swift; he made no demands.
Agnes was predictably relentlesscalling, demanding justice, shouting that shed been robbed of her son. Once she tried to grab my arm outside my office building. I simply walked past her, saying nothing.
Her power ended where my patience ran out.
Sometimes, in a strange nostalgic mood, I would glance at Simons old socialmedia page. The photos showed him back at his parents house, the same carpet, the same wall art, his face etched with perpetual resentment, as if the whole world were to blame for his failed life.
No guests came now. No celebrations either.
A few weeks ago, returning from a meeting, I received a message from an unknown number: Poppy, hi. Its Simon. Mum wants a salad recipe. Says she cant get it right.
I stopped in the street, read it several times, then laughedgenuinely, not maliciously. The absurdity of the request was the perfect epilogue to our story. They had tried to destroy our family, to erase me, and now they wanted a good salad.
I looked at the screen. In my new life, filled with interesting projects, respected people, and quiet happiness, there was no room for old recipes or old grudges.
I blocked the number without a second thought, as if discarding a speck of dust.
Then I took a big gulp of juice. It was sweet, with a faint tartnessa taste of freedom. And it was glorious.
