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You Said You Married Me Because I’m ‘Convenient’—What’s That Supposed to Mean?” He Just Shrugged and Said, “So? Is That a Bad Thing?

You said you married me because I was convenient! she snapped.
He shrugged. So? Whats wrong with that?
Are you seriously wearing that old dressing gown again? Oliver shot Emily a look of disgust as he adjusted his cufflinks, as if preparing for battle.
She froze, the mug of coffee in her hands steaming faintly. The heat stung her fingers, but she didnt pull away.
Its comfortable.
Yeah, comfortable, he scoffed, straightening his tie in the mirror. Like everything else about you.
Emily lowered her eyes. The coffee had stopped steaming. The surface was dark, reflecting the ceiling like a broken little mirror.
Ollie, you
What? He was already jangling his keys, the metal clinking against his wedding band.
Nothing.
The door slammed so hard the porcelain on the shelf rattled.
***
Theyd met at work. She was the quiet, unassuming accountant who tied her hair in a messy bun; he was the loud, confident manager whose laughter echoed down the corridors. Oliver wooed her with roses still damp with morning dew, candlelit dinners where he ordered her steak medium-rare without asking what she liked.
Youre not one of those women who fusses over little things, are you? hed asked on their third date, smoothing a napkin over her lap.
No, Emily had smiled, ignoring the warning bells.
Good. My ex was always kicking up a fuss
She hadnt thought much of it. Then came the wedding, the kids, the house. Everything as it should be.
Except when she tried on a dress with bare shoulders, hed say, Stick to something simpler. Thats not really you.
Or when she dabbed on lipstick, hed mutter, Why bother? Youre just staying in.
Once, when she bought a new perfumesomething light and floralhed wrinkled his nose. Smells cheap. Like something Brenda from accounting would wear.
She never wore it again.
For her birthday, he bought her a hoover.
The old ones knackered, hed said, watching her unwrap it. Youre always sighing when you clean.
She thanked him. Then stared out the window for a long time before the kids called her to cut the cake.
But she stayed quiet. Because he was a good husband, really. Didnt drink, didnt hit her, brought home the bacon.
Wasnt that enough?
***
Did you ever love me?
The same evening. The same conversation. Oliver looked away, as if checking the window was latched.
Of course I did. Youre the perfect wife.
Thats not an answer.
He sighed, like she was asking him to explain the offside rule.
Emily, why are you making a fuss? Were fine.
Fine?! Her voice shooknot with tears, but with fury finally breaking free. You said today you married me because I was convenient!
So? He shrugged. Whats wrong with that?
She looked at him properly then: the tan on his neck from tennis with colleagues, not her. The crease between his browsnot from worry, but irritation at having to justify himself.
What about Jessica?
His face twitched, like someone had tugged an invisible string.
Whats she got to do with it?
You loved her.
Yeah, he admitted sharply, and that one word held more feeling than all their years together. I did. But she wasnt wife material.
Emily felt something inside her snaplike a broken heel. You could still walk, but never the same way again.
So I was the obedient, practical replacement.
Dont be dramatic, he waved a hand, swatting away a fly. Weve got kids. A home. What more do you want?
***
She hesitated.
Maybe he was right? Maybe love was a luxury, and family mattered more? Emily stood by the window, watching raindrops smear the glass. Her reflection showed smudged fingerprintsshed been standing there so often lately, as if waiting for the world outside to give her an answer.
And Oliver? Oliver carried on as if nothing had changed.
A week later, seeing she hadnt kicked off, he stopped pretending altogether.
Pasta again? He poked at his plate like it was evidence of her failure. Couldve at least added some seasoning.
You said you dont like spicy, she replied, but her voice sounded distant, like someone else was speaking.
So? Jessica always used to
Emily stood abruptly. The chair screeched, leaving a scratch on the flooranother mark in the house, another invisible crack.
Go to Jessica, then!
Oh, grow up, he laughed, and that stung more than a shout. Where would I go? You know Im comfortable with you.
Thats when she finally understood.
He wasnt even trying to keep her. Not because he was sure of her lovebut sure of her obedience.
She started noticing it everywhere.
The way he no longer corrected her outfitsjust walked past without looking. The way his eyes skimmed over her, as if she were part of the furniturea sofa no one sat on anymore. The way his calm stretches lasted weeksno rows, no complaints, just nothing.
And the worst part? That nothing was louder than any scream.
Standing in the kitchen, gripping the counter, she realised: he wasnt even angry. He was just waiting for her to accept it. Like shed accepted the hoover instead of a gift. Like shed stopped wearing perfume. Like shed stopped being the type to fuss over little things.
Then something inside her flipped.
Not pain, not ragerelief.
Because if someones angry with you, at least you still exist to them.
But if they cant even be bothered to be angry?
Youre already gone.
***
A month later, she filed for divorce.
Oliver didnt believe it at first. He walked into the kitchen, where Emily was packing the kids things into boxes, and frozelike she wasnt his wife, but a stranger.
Youre serious? His voice wavered, uncertain for the first time in years.
Emily didnt look up, carefully folding tiny jumpers.
Yes.
Over something this stupid? He stepped forward, and she felt her shoulders tense.
Its not stupid, she said quietly. Im not furniture.
He laughedsharp, nervous.
Oh, here we go! Always blowing things out of proportion.
Emily finally looked at him. His face was painfully familiar, but she saw it differently now: the tight lips, the narrowed eyeshe wasnt upset about losing her, but about his convenient world cracking.
Im not exaggerating, she said. Im just tired of being convenient.
Oliver was silent, then snatched his keys off the table.
Fine! You think Ill struggle? He glanced at the boxes. You cant even cook properly.
She flinchedan old, familiar sting. Once, those words wouldve made her doubt herself. Now? Now they sounded hollow.
Maybe, she agreed. But someone else seems to think otherwise.
His face twisted.
Ah, so thats it! Theres someone else, is there? He smirked. Look at youwhod even want you?
Her chest tightenedthe old ache. She almost opened her mouth to say, Youre right, sorry, like she had a hundred times before.
But suddenly, she realised: she didnt want to.
Me, she said firmly. I want me.
Oliver stilled. He hadnt expected that.
Youve lost the plot, he hissed. What about the kids? Dont you care?
She closed her eyes for a second. The kids God, she thought about them every minute.
Theyll learn what self-respect looks like, she replied.
Oh, spare me! He waved a hand. Youre just selfish. Weve got everythinga nice house, money And youre throwing it away over nothing?
Emily looked at him and realised: he truly didnt get it. To him, it really was nothing.
To you, yes, she said. To me, no.
He turned away, jingling his keys impatiently.
Whatever. Youll regret this.
On the day she collected the last of her things, Oliver suddenly asked:
You really think youll find someone better?
She paused at the door, feeling the breeze on her face.
Better? She smiled. Dunno. But at least someone who sees me, not just an empty space.
He said nothing.
And she stepped outside, where the air smelled like rain and freedom.
***
Two years later.
Emily married a
