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Пробач, але я ще не готовий до спільного проживання

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Вибач, але я поки не хочу жити разом…

Олександру здавалося, що Галя закохана в нього так само, як і він у неї, тому його сильно здивувала її відповідь на пропозицію зійтися.

– Вибач, але я поки не хочу жити разом! – сказала вона.

– А чому?

– Не знаю, ми зустрічаємося всього півроку. Мені здається, ще зарано…

– Рано? Сонце, мені здається, що саме час. Поживемо разом, дізнаємося одне про одного краще, а потім, дивись, перейдемо на наступний рівень.

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– Олесь, це не комп’ютерна гра, це життя. І в моєму житті зараз немає місця для спільного життя, але це не означає, що я не ціную наші стосунки. Мене цілком влаштовує те, що є зараз.

– Але я хочу більшого! Хочу прокидатися з тобою зранку. Хочу засинати разом! Хіба ти цього не хочеш?

– Ми й так це робимо. Двічі на тиждень, забув? Хіба цього мало?

– Мені мало!

– Ну, якщо ти мене любиш, то доведеться поки зачекати.

– Я можу зачекати, якщо ти мені озвучиш причину! Чому не хочеш? Поясни! Невже це так складно?

Галя трохи подумала, потім усміхнулася йому і вирішила, що варто все обговорити більш детально.

– Олесь, давай начистоту. Що для тебе означає спільне проживання з жінкою?

– Я вже сказав, засинати і прокидатися разом!

– А між цим?

– У якому сенсі? – не зрозумів він.

– У добі двадцять чотири години, забув? Ти говориш тільки про ніч і раніше ранок, а решта часу?

– А решта часу ми майже завжди на роботі! Хіба ні?

– Чому ж? Ось, наприклад, ми ж будемо вечеряти чи снідати?

– Сподіваюся!

– А хто буде готувати?

– Ти не вмієш готувати! – здогадався Олександр, точніше він так вирішив по дурості, хоча не раз куштував її страви.

– Я вмію готувати!

– Тоді, в чому проблема?

– Хто буде готувати? Ти чи я?

– Ну, ти, може, іноді я. А чому ти так хвилюєшся з цього приводу?

– Олесь, тому що я не хочу перетворювати своє життя на день бабака, як багато моїх подруг! Я не хочу вставати раніше, щоб комусь готувати сніданок. Не хочу бігти з роботи, заходити до магазину, нести пакети додому, а потім ще дві години стояти біля плити і готувати вечерю!

– Але ти ж іноді готуєш, коли залишаєшся у мене, хіба ні? Я думав, тобі подобається…

Олександр виглядав трохи роздратованим. Виходить, його дівчина — ледарка?

– Я люблю готувати, але робити це щодня поки не готова. Мені подобається приходити додому, зробити салатик нашвидкуруч, і на цьому все. Мені подобається, що ми зустрічаємося двічі на тиждень, іноді частіше. Мені цього вистачає! Можливо, колись захочу більшого, але поки що ні!

– Просто ти мене не любиш! – констатував Олександр.

– Ну от, почалося…

– А що? Хіба ні? Коли жінка любить, вона готова на все заради коханого!

– А коханий? Він готовий на все заради коханої?

– Звичайно!

– Добре, тоді давай жити разом, АЛЕ – всі домашні обов’язки наполовину. Точніше кожен прибирає за собою, готуємо по черзі, свої речі кожен пере сам. Як тобі такий варіант?

– Але я погано готую. Ти ж сама казала!

– Буде привід навчитися. Не завжди ж їсти піцу чи бургери. Я можу допомогти з навчанням!

– Я просто не розумію, невже це так складно? Тоді чому іншим не складно? Ти що особлива? – не заспокоювався Олександр.

– Ну, якщо тобі хочеться так думати. Хай буде так! Я особлива. Я не хочу класти своє особисте життя на вівтар кохання. Не зараз так точно. Мені всього двадцять три. Я хочу насолоджуватися свободою!

– А, я зрозумів! У тебе є інший чоловік! – знову придумав неочікуваний висновок Олександр.

– І навіщо мені він? – не зрозуміла Галя.

– Ну, раз ти не хочеш жити зі мною, значить, він тобі дорожче!

– Твій вигаданий чоловік мені дорожчий? – усміхнулася вона.

– Твій вигаданий чоловік! Навіщо мені вигадувати собі чоловіків!

– А, тобі чоловіки не потрібні, тому ти вирішив вигадати мені, так?

– Ти мене зовсім заплутала! – майже закричав він.

– Тому що ти кажеш дурниці! У мене більше нікого немає! Мені іноді і тебе багато, тому я і не хочу жити разом! Я люблю своє самотність і не готова з нею розстатися. Не зараз!

– Як можна любити самотність, коли ти в стосунках? – здивувався Олександр.

– Дуже просто. Ось є речі, які тобі подобається робити, коли нікого немає вдома?

– Наприклад?

– Не знаю, читати книгу, дивитися серіал, приймати ванну, зависати в соціальних мережах, приміряти речі зі шафи, танцювати в темряві!

– Чоловіки таким не займаються! – обурився він.

– А дівчата займаються! І мені це подобається! Я поки не готова розлучитися з звичайними приємностями свого холостяцького життя!

– Але ж і в спільному житті є свої приємності! – все ще намагався переконати її Олександр.

– Наприклад?

– Засинати і прокидатися разом! – знову почав він свою пісню.

– Олесь, ти в курсі, що ти хропиш, як трактор?

– Що? Ти ніколи не говорила! І інші не скаржилися!

– Ну, на рахунок інших не скажу, а ось після того, як Богдан тобі в’їхав по носі на шашликах пару місяців тому, хропіти ти почав жахливо. І до речі, я тобі говорила! Я можу терпіти це пару раз на тиждень, але кожен день не хочу! Я теж хочу хоча б іноді висипатися.

– Ти не висипаєшся поруч зі мною?

– Тільки в ті рідкісні моменти, коли вдається заснути раніше тебе!

– Але ти ж зазвичай лягаєш пізніше…

– От і я про це!

– Ага, значить, я хроплю, я не готую, я не підходжу для спільного життя?

– А ще, як виявилося, ти жахливий зануда! – не стрималася вона.

– Чого це я зануда!?

– Ти вже півгодини намагаєшся переконати мене зробити те, чого я принципово не хочу робити. Що це, якщо не занудство?

– Галь, я взагалі-то хотів одружитися на тобі! Тому і запропонував пожити разом! – ображено сказав він.

– А я хіба казала, що хочу заміж? – сумно усміхнулася вона.

– А ти хіба не хочеш? Всі дівчата хочуть заміж!

– Очевидно, не всі…

– Або ти не хочеш заміж за мене? – здогадався він.

– Я в принципі не хочу, але якщо і розмірковувати по-твоєму, то що ти можеш запропонувати майбутній дружині? Засинати і прокидатися разом?

– Ти хочеш сказати, що я пусте місце? – образився Олександр. – Що я ні на що не здатний?

– Тобі вже майже тридцять. Ти працюєш за дев’ятнадцять тисяч гривень на місяць, ти живеш у занедбаній квартирі свого дядька, аби не платити за оренду, ти одягаєшся в дешевих магазинах. Ти навіть машину не хочеш купити, бо її треба утримувати!

– Тебе слухати, так я ще той подарунок! Тоді навіщо ти взагалі зі мною зустрічалася?

Галя знизала плечима.

– Ти симпатичний, добре складений, ти веселий і прекрасний коханець.

– Для здоров’я?

– І для душі!

– Але сім’ї у нас не буде!

– Поки ти не подорослішаєш, точно ні!

– Прекрасно! Тоді моя пропозиція знімається з порядку денного! І знаєш, я тобі навіть більше скажу! Ми розходимося!

– Серйозно? – іронічно запитала Галя. – А я думала, ти вже і не запропонуєш! Тоді бувай? – сказала вона і помахала йому рукою, нагадуючи, що він свариться з нею у її квартирі.

– Бувай! – гордо заявив він, натягуючи штани. – Точніше прощавай!

– Значить, прощавай! – сказала вона з посмішкою і кинула йому футболку.

Олександр пішов, а Галя ввімкнула музику, вимкнула світло і почала танцювати. Це завжди допомагало заспокоїти нерви і повернути позитивний настрій. Вона знала, що завтра або післязавтра він все одно повернеться, але ось чи впустить вона його назад? Це вже питання.

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I’m going on and on about myself…” But suddenly there was a crackle and the call cut out. Nina sat there, phone in hand. She wanted to ring back, but it was late—better not. Another time. What a wonderful chat they’d had—so many memories! The sudden ringtone made Nina jump. Her granddaughter. “Yes, Daisy, hello, I’m still up. What did Mum say? No, my mood’s fine. I’m going to a concert with Mum. Are you coming over tomorrow? Wonderful, see you then. Bye.” In an unexpectedly good mood, Nina Anderson went to bed, head full of plans. As she drifted off, she found herself composing lines for a new poem… In the morning, Nina decided to visit Irene. Just a few stops on the tram—she wasn’t a creaky old nag yet. Irene was delighted: “At last! You’ve been promising for ages. Ooh, is that an apricot tart? My favourite! Well, spill, what’s brought this on?” Irene coughed, pressing her hand to her chest, then waved Nina’s concern away. “It’s all right, new inhaler—I’m better. Come on, let’s have tea. Nina, you look younger somehow—come on, tell me!” “I don’t know—my fifth youth!” Nina laughed as she sliced the tart. “Yesterday I rang Simon Mallory by accident… remember your crush in Year Eleven? We got to reminiscing—I’d forgotten half of it. What’s up, Irene? Not another asthma attack?” Irene sat pale and silent, then whispered: “Nina, you didn’t know? Simon passed away a year ago. He lived in another part of town—he moved from that old place ages ago.” “You must be joking! How? Who was I talking to? He remembered everything about our school days. My mood was terrible before talking to him. But after we spoke, I felt life was carrying on—that I still had strength, and joy for living… How could it be?” Nina couldn’t believe Simon was gone. “But I heard his voice. He said such beautiful things: ‘The sun shines for you. And the breeze chases clouds across the sky for you. And the birds sing for you!’” Irene shook her head, sceptical of her friend’s story. Then she surprised Nina by saying: “Nina, I don’t know how, but it really does sound like it was him. His words, his style. Simon loved you. I think he wanted to support you… from the other side. And it looks like he did. I haven’t seen you so happy and full of energy for ages. One day, someone will piece your tattered heart back together. And you’ll finally remember—what it feels like to be… simply happy.”

No one to even have a chat with. A Reminiscence “Mother, honestly, what are you talking about? How can you...