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Irina stood by the window, watching the thick London snow fall over the city, as her ordinary weekday phone call with her husband drew to a close—one of countless conversations over their fifteen years of marriage.

Emily stood by the window, watching the thick London snow blanket the city. Her call with her husband was drawing to a closejust another mundane conversation in their fifteen years of marriage. James, as usual, was reporting on his “business trip” to Manchester: everything was fine, meetings were going as planned, hed be back in three days.
“Alright, love, talk soon,” Emily said, moving the phone from her ear to tap the red end-call button. But suddenly, something stopped her. On the other end, she heard a womans voicebright, youthful, and unmistakably intimate:
“Jamesy, are you coming? Ive run the bath”
Emilys hand froze mid-air. Her heart skipped a beat, then hammered so hard it felt like it might burst from her chest. She quickly pressed the phone back to her ear, but all she heard was the dull tone of the ended call.
She sank slowly into the armchair, her legs giving way beneath her. Her mind raced: “Jamesy A bath What kind of business trip has a bath?” Memories of the last few months flashed through her headhis frequent trips, the late-night calls he always took on the balcony, the new cologne lingering in his car.
With trembling hands, she opened her laptop. Logging into his email was easyshe still knew the password from when trust and honesty had been the foundation of their marriage. Tickets, hotel bookings A “honeymoon suite” in a five-star Manchester hotel. For two.
Then she found the emails. Chloe. Twenty-six. Personal trainer. “I cant do this anymore. You promised youd leave her three months ago. How much longer do I have to wait?”
Emily felt sick. A memory flickered in her mindtheir first date, when he was just a junior sales rep and she was a trainee accountant. Theyd saved for their wedding while renting a tiny flat, celebrating every small victory and comforting each other through setbacks. Now he was a successful commercial director, she was head of finance at the same company, and between them stretched a chasmfifteen years of marriage, and twenty-six years of Chloe.
Back in the hotel room, James paced furiously.
“What were you thinking?” His voice shook with anger.
Chloe lay on the bed, wrapped lazily in a silk robe, her blonde hair spilling over the pillow.
“Whats the big deal?” She stretched like a satisfied cat. “You said you were going to leave her anyway.”
“That was my decision to make! Do you have any idea what youve done? Emily isnt stupidshe knows!”
“Good!” Chloe sat up sharply. “Im tired of being your dirty little secret. I want to go to restaurants with you, meet your friends, be your wife, for Gods sake!”
“Youre acting like a child,” he hissed.
“And youre a coward!” She jumped up, stepping close. “Look at me. Im young, Im beautiful, I can give you children. What can she do? Just count your money?”
James grabbed her shoulders. “Dont you dare talk about Emily like that! You know nothing about herabout us!”
“I know enough,” she spat, wrenching free. “I know youre unhappy. That shes buried in work and chores. When was the last time you made love? Or even went on holiday together?”
James turned to the window. Somewhere out there, in snow-covered London, his life with Emily was crumbling. Fifteen years, collapsing like a house of cards because of one careless sentence from a spoiled girl.
Emily sat in the dark kitchen, gripping a cold mug of tea. Her phone showed dozens of missed calls from James. She hadnt answered. What was there to say? “Darling, I heard your mistress calling you to her bath”?
Her mind replayed snapshots of their life together: James proposing in the middle of a crowded restaurant, their first tiny flat in a quiet suburb, him holding her when she lost her mother, celebrating his promotion Then came the endless overtime, the mortgages, the renovations
When had they last talked properly? Watched a film curled up together? Made plans?
Her phone buzzed again. A message: “Em, we need to talk. I can explain.”
Explain what? That shed aged? That shed drowned in routine? That a twenty-six-year-old personal trainer understood him better?
Emily walked to the mirror. Forty-two. Wrinkles around her eyes, grey roots she religiously covered each month. When had the fatigue set in? The rigid schedules, the endless chase for stability?
“James, where did you go?” Chloe glared when he returned to the room after another failed attempt to call Emily.
“Not now,” he muttered, loosening his tie as he slumped into a chair.
“No, now!” She planted her hands on her hips. “I want to know what happens next. You realize you have to decide, dont you?”
James looked at herconfident, vibrant, full of life. Thats how Emily had been fifteen years ago. God, how had he done this to her?
“Chloe,” he rubbed his face tiredly, “youre right. A decision needs to be made.”
She brightened, rushing to him. “Oh, darling! I knew youd do the right thing!”
“Yes,” he gently pushed her back. “This has to end.”
“What?” She recoiled as if struck.
“It was a mistake,” he stood. “I love my wife. Yes, we have problems. Yes, weve drifted apart. But I cant I wont throw away fifteen years.”
“You coward!” Tears streamed down her face.
“No, Chloe. I was the coward when I started this. When I lied to the woman whos shared everything with mejoy, grief, success, failure. Youre right. Im unhappy. But happiness isnt something you find on the side. Its something you build.”
The knock came just past midnight. Emily knew it was himhed caught the first flight back.
“Em, please open the door,” his muffled voice pleaded.
She did. James stood on the thresholdunshaven, crumpled suit, guilt-ridden eyes.
“Can I come in?”
Silently, she stepped aside. They walked to the kitchenthe place where theyd once dreamed together, made plans.
“Em”
“Dont,” she raised a hand. “I know. Chloe, twenty-six, personal trainer. I read your emails.”
He nodded, speechless.
“Why, James?”
He stared out at the city lights for a long time before answering.
“Because Im weak. Because I was scared wed become strangers. Because she reminded me of youthe old you, full of energy and dreams.”
“And now?”
“Now” He turned to her. “Now I want to fix this. If youll let me.”
“What about her?”
“Its over. I cant lose you. Em, I dont deserve forgiveness. But lets try? Couples therapy, more time together, rebuilding what we had”
Emily studied himolder, greyer, achingly familiar. Fifteen years wasnt just a number. It was shared memories, private jokes, the comfort of silence. The ability to forgive.
“I dont know, James,” she cried for the first time that night. “I just dont know”
He wrapped his arms around her, and she didnt pull away. Outside, snow continued to fall, covering London in white.
Somewhere in Manchester, in a hotel room, a young woman cried, facing a harsh truth for the first time: real love isnt passion or romance. Its a choicemade every single day.
And here, in this kitchen, two middle-aged people tried to pick up the pieces. Ahead lay a long roadthrough anger and distrust, therapy sessions and painful conversations, relearning each other. But both knew: sometimes you have to lose something to understand its worth.
