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The Stillness of New Year’s Eve
New Years Quietude
November hung over me like a damp blanketgrey, wet, hopelessly dismal, just as ever. The days dragged on endlessly without colour or cheer. I only realised December had arrived because of the relentless advertisements for prosecco, mince pies, and satsumas.
London caught fire with pre-Christmas frenzy: shop windows twinkling with fairy lights, people shuttling enormous carrier bags through crowds as if running a festive obstacle course. Everyone was rushing somewhere, everyone seemed harried, everyone was making plans. I, Emma Bennett, forty years old, wasnt rushing anywhere. I had nothing to wait for, nothing to anticipateI was simply counting the days until it was all mercifully over.
My divorce was finalised three months ago. No children, so there were no tangled custody battles or hard choices, only the quiet parting of two lives lived parallel for far too long. Now those paths bent away for good. My colleagues would call out, Happy New Year! with such bright faces, as if their cheer might infect me. Id answer with polite smiles, empty of any real warmth. All day I repeated to myself: Its nothing special. December swaps places with January. Wednesday changes to Thursday. No reason to celebrate.
My New Years Eve plans were brutally simple: shower, pull on my frayed old pyjamas, make a pot of chamomile tea, and be asleep by ten oclockjust another evening. No Mary Berry trifle, no Love Actually reruns, and the only bottle of bubbly would languish in the fridge for another year.
***
Then the night arrived.
The weather, seemingly amused by Londons celebrations, decided to throw its own partya dreary, decidedly un-festive one. Frigid rain lashed the windows, blending with the slush caking the kerb and pavements. The sky pressed downa heavy, gloomy canvasand even the Christmas lights felt tired and joyless. The ideal night for hiding away.
By half nine, I was already burrowed beneath my duvet, the flat warm but lifeless. Through the wall, my neighbours music buzzed, muffled and distant. I closed my eyes and tried to sleep.
I awoke to an insistent sounda detailed, deliberate pounding I couldnt ignore.
Someone was thumping the door, not just knockinga persistent, almost desperate sound. I sat up, muttering crossly about drunken partygoers with no manners. The clock blinked:
23:45
I hesitated, not planning to answer. Surely, someone had the wrong flat. Eventually, curiosity drew me to the window.
Outside, all had changed. Where thered been rain and filth hours earlier, now the world had turned brilliant white. Giant, downy snowflakes twirled slowly in the glow of the streetlamps, blanketing London in a feather-soft quilt. A fairytale, conjured out of nowhere.
***
The knock came again. Softer but even more determined.
Still swept up in wonder, I opened the door without thinking. In that moment, my logic gave way to the sheer lovely oddness of it all.
And there he was
***
My neighbour.
Arthur Harris from across the hall; a kindly, unkempt old gent with silver hair always unruly, and mischievous twinkles in his eyes. He wore a careworn tweed jacket, a woollen scarf looped lazily atop it, and clung to a battered leather case in one hand. In the other, he held a large glass jar filled with something scarlet and enticing.
Terribly sorry to trouble you, he said, his voice raspy as an autumn wind. I couldnt help noticing it seemed there was a curious quiet in your flat tonight. A New Years quietvery rare, you know. I couldnt pass it by.
I stared at him, then at the snowy streets under the lamplight, stunned by the magic of all of it.
Arthur, what do you What brings you here? My voice cracked, uncertain.
Ive brought you a gift, he said, holding out the jar. Spiced cranberry punch. My late wife swore it cured any cloud of melancholy. And He lifted the case. Id love to show you something. May I come in? Fifteen minutes is all I ask. Just until midnight chimes.
I hovered at the threshold. All my numbness, the wall of nothing special, began to crumble. First that breathtaking snow, now Arthur with his odd offerings. Curiosityburied under too many years of disappointmentfluttered awake in me.
Alright, I said, half laughing at myself. Come in.
Arthur stepped inside, brushing snow from his boots. He didnt bother to remove his scarf, simply set his case down on the lounge carpet, almost ceremonial. The only light came from the lamp outside the window.
Its rather sparse in here, he observed, but without judgementjust honest.
I hadnt planned to celebrate.
Of course, Arthur nodded. After such big changes as yours, a holiday can feel like an insult. Everyone is merry for no reason and youwell, you feel as if youre the odd one out. You wonder if somethings wrong with you.
His words hit hardthe precise truth, spoken gently.
Wed only ever exchanged small talk in the hallway, nothing more.
Is it true?
Ive lived a while, Emma. Ive seen plenty of lonely Decembers. Winters arent endingstheyre rests, a bit of time for the earth to gather itself. Same for us, as people. Were meant to restjust not forget to wake up.
He snapped open his case. There, nestled in velvet, were glass baubles of every shape and colour. One blue as the night sky, dusted with silver to mimic the Milky Way. Another, scarlet, cradled a tiny gold rose. A third, clear, but tilting it just so, it flashed with a miniature rainbow.
What are these? I whispered, eyes wide.
My collection, Arthur beamed. Not stamps, nor coinsI collect memories. Each bauble, a happy moment. This one he lifted the blueour first trip to the Lake District; Margaret and I watched for shooting stars, promising wed always be together. This redshe gave me for our anniversary, saying love should be a rose that never wilts.
Looking at those tiny glass worlds, I felt my heart begin to thaw, the bleak lump finally melting. These werent just decorations; they were a life lived deep, with purpose and affection.
Why show me?
Because youre empty, Arthur said, not unkindly. And emptiness isnt a sentenceits space. Room to fill with new things. Look.
He reached into his jacket and drew out one plain bauble, clear and unadorned.
This is for you, he said, handing it to me. Your very first. It marks tonightthe night you opened your door when you meant to hide. The snow you watched. Proof that wonders can happen, even in the quietest gloom.
I accepted it. It was cool, smooth in my palm.
Out on the street, Big Ben began its midnight strikes, followed by shouts: Happy New Year!
I glanced at Arthur. The light in his eyes had shiftedless mischievous, more deeply wise.
Thank you, I murmured. For the first time in months, I managed a genuine, if timid, smile.
Not at all, he replied. Youve got a beginning now. The resta cup of tea tomorrow, a book you finish, or something greateryoull decide what goes into this bauble. New Year is only just starting.
He packed his case, wished me quiet dreams, and slipped away, leaving me cradling my empty bauble and the hush of the flat.
But it was a gentler silence nownot hollow, but quietly full of hope.
I drifted to the window, clutching the delicate sphere. Snow was falling, erasing the dashed lines of yesterday, blanketing London in clean possibility. For the first time in a long while, my thoughts turnednot to what had been lost, but to what might be next
And that felt like a true New Years miracle.
