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Today Is My Dog’s Last Day, and He Sits Quietly Before Me, Softly Weeping
Today, its my dogs last day, and hes sitting quietly, shedding a few tears as he looks at me. Hes on the sofathe same one hes always claimed for himself. Technically, its my spot, but about nine years ago I gave up squabbling with a thirty-kilo staffie over furniture rights and that was that.
His name is Sergeant.
I named him Sergeant because, truth be told, I couldnt let go of my Army dayseven after the Army let go of me.
Tomorrow morning at ten oclock, Dr Thompson will come to the house. Ill hold Sergeant in my arms while she helps him drift off to sleep. And then the only living soul who ever truly saved my life will be gone.
Sergeant didnt simply wander into my routine lifehe crashed in at the worst possible moment.
Id just returned from Afghanistan in 2014. Two tours, thirty-one years old, looking perfectly fine on the outside.
Inside, I was collapsing.
By early 2015, Id cut myself off from the world. I wasnt sleeping, barely eating, ignoring calls. Just sitting on that same sofacurtains shut, lights offtrying to smother memories that just wouldnt pack it in.
My family tried.
My friends tried.
The NHS gave it a decent go.
I pushed them all away.
Then, one evening, I heard scratching at the back door. It would stop, then start again. On and on, for hours.
After two hours, I finally opened the door. There he wasan old brindle staffordshire bull terrier, skinny, tired eyes. It looked like hed had a pretty rough tour himself.
He didnt hesitate for a second.
He just wandered straight past me as if hed lived here his whole life, jumped onto the sofa, spun round twice and flopped down.
Then he gave me a look that said, quite clearly:
Well, about time.
I didnt want a dog.
Didnt want much of anything, really.
But Sergeant didnt give a toss what I wanted.
He needed foodso I took myself off to Tesco.
He needed walksso I pulled open the curtains and faced the daylight again.
He needed a vetso I made the call, showed up on time.
He didnt rescue me in a grand Hollywood moment.
He saved me with small, stubborn, daily needs.
The date Id quietly chosen for myself came and went. I was, after all, far too busy researching which kibble suited an elderly staffie with a temperamental stomach.
Thats how healing works, really.
Not with fireworks or epiphanies.
But with obligations.
With a dog who expects his tea at six sharp.
For nine years, this lumbering, big-hearted staffie has been by my side.
Across three flats.
Two jobs.
A brilliant woman who signed up for both of us.
And the birth of my daughtershes four now and convinced Sergeants her very own personal bodyguard.
He sleeps at the foot of our bed.
He trails along behind my daughter in the hallway, as if hes on his own little patrol.
Every night, hes there on the sofa, resting his great blocky head on my knee, just making sure Im still present.
And I am.
Because of him.
Last month, we discovered a fast-growing tumour. Inoperable. Just weeks left, not months.
So were living differently now.
Shorter walks.
Extra sausages.
Longer evenings together on the sofa.
My hand resting on that wide, tired head that, once upon a time, scratched at my door and refused to leave me alone.
My daughter tucks her soft toys round him so he wont be lonely for his naps. He lets her build a plush fortress about him and doesnt budge an inch.
Hes tired now.
I see it in his eyes.
The same eyes that, nine years ago, decided I was worth saving.
Tomorrow, I have to be brave for him.
Hold him tight.
Tell him hes the best boy.
Say thank you.
And let him rest.
Hes given me nine years of loyalty, protection, and the truest love.
The very least I can do is give him peace.
If youve ever loved a staffie
If a dog has ever picked you up when you thought you didnt deserve it
Youll know this feeling.
Goodnight, Sergeant.
My old brindle soldier.
Thank you for scratching at my door.
Thank you for needing supper.
Thank you for choosing me, when I hadnt chosen myself.
Ill spend the rest of my life trying to be worthy of it.
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