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“I searched for him for five months,” Graham hugged the dirty, scruffy cat.
Nina Stephens saw him at half past seven in the morning.
Geoffrey stood by the lift, holding a cat. He pressed it to his chest with both hands. The cat was grey, patchy on one flank, and it smelled of the basement so strongly that Nina Stephens took a step back.
“God,” she said. “What on earth is that?”
Geoffrey didn’t answer. He rarely spoke to neighbours. He pressed the lift button and stared at the floor indicator.
“Where did you dig him up?” she said, not asking but stating. “He’s filthy. You’re not taking him home, are you?”
“I’ve been looking for him for five months.”
The lift doors opened. Geoffrey stepped inside. He pressed the button for the fourth floor.
Nina Stephens stayed in the hallway, watching the doors close. But Geoffrey’s face was very happy. He didn’t take his eyes off the cat, and he gently adjusted its paws when it stirred.
Later she told the neighbour on the fifth floor that he’d looked strange.
But why—she found out later.
The posters went up in September. Small, printed on ordinary paper, with a photograph. The photo showed a cat. Grey, striped, whiskers shorter on one side than the other. Under the photo it said simply “Lost” and a phone number.
Geoffrey put them up himself. Early in the morning, before work, he went out with a roll of tape and a stack of flyers. He walked around lamp posts, notice boards, the walls near the shop. His fingers grew numb, the tape wouldn’t stick in the cold, and he had to press it down longer than usual.
Oscar had gone missing at the end of August. He just didn’t come home in the evening. The kitchen window had been left open.
At home, by the radiator, a bowl stood. Geoffrey never cleared it.
The calls came for the first two weeks.
People reported grey cats. Striped cats. One ginger cat, which someone decided to offer anyway. Geoffrey went to every call. He looked, shook his head, thanked them. Then drove back.
In the third week, a woman from Builder Street called, saying she’d seen a similar cat near the garages. Geoffrey went that evening, after work, in the dark. He walked between the garages with his phone torch, shining it under the doors, calling out. No one came out. Only a strange black cat looked at him from under a gate and slipped back into the darkness.
In October he started a notebook.
He wrote down the addresses he visited. The names of people who called. The dates. Sometimes short notes – “grey, but younger”, “wrong colour”, “owners found”. The pages grew. Geoffrey would flip through the notebook sometimes in the evenings, not reading, just flipping.
A colleague at work, Victor, asked him one day what was wrong.
“Nothing,” said Geoffrey.
“Well, exactly,” said Victor, and didn’t ask again.
November was damp, dark early.
Geoffrey widened the search area. He walked through courtyards a block away, two blocks away. He went into other people’s stairwells, checked windowsills, under stairs. Sometimes he asked people in the yards. Most shook their heads without stopping. One old woman near the third entrance said she’d seen a similar cat by the transformer box in September, but she wasn’t sure.
Geoffrey thanked her. Walked to the transformer box. Stood there. No one, of course.
Nina Stephens caught him in the hallway one day and told him that was enough, five months gone, he should get another cat. She didn’t mean any harm.
“I don’t want another,” said Geoffrey.
“Well, that’s a shame,” she said.
He nodded and headed for the stairs. Nina Stephens watched him go and thought how people drove themselves crazy over a cat.
In December the calls almost stopped.
The posters got wet, turned yellow, peeled off in places. Geoffrey replaced them. He printed new ones and went out in the mornings with his roll of tape. He’d learned to hold the roll under his arm and unwind it with one hand while pressing the paper with the other.
On the third day of January, he heard a sound.
Quiet. Barely there. Somewhere behind the basement door under the first entrance. Geoffrey stopped. Listened. The sound didn’t repeat.
He stood for a minute. Then went to get the key from the building manager.
The manager, Mr. Simmons, took a long time searching for the key, found the wrong one, then found the right one. He asked what Geoffrey had lost in the basement. Geoffrey told him. Mr. Simmons looked at him the way you look at a man it’s best not to argue with, and handed over the key.
The door opened with effort, and the smell of damp concrete, old wood, and something else washed over him. Geoffrey switched on his torch and stepped inside.
The basement was long and low.
Geoffrey walked slowly, shining the light under pipes, behind old crates, along the walls. The torch beam picked out a rusty bike with no wheel, a stack of planks, someone’s discarded camp bed with a sagging side. It smelled of moisture and lime. Somewhere water dripped, slow and steady, like a clock.
“Oscar,” said Geoffrey.
He said it quietly. Not a call, but a check, like testing the dark before stepping into it.
No answer.
He went further, past a fuse box with wires, past old radiators stacked against the wall. The torch beam moved slowly. Geoffrey wasn’t in a hurry. In five months he’d learned not to rush where rushing did no good.
“Oscar.”
Silence again. Only the drip somewhere. Only the pipes humming overhead, warm, coated with dust.
He reached the far wall and stopped. He shone the light into a corner. There were crates, three or four, stacked on top of each other, and between them and the wall a dark space, narrow as a crack. Geoffrey crouched. Shone the light inside.
Two eyes reflected the beam.
He didn’t move. Just looked. His heart did something strange, not loud but noticeable, like missing a step and then catching up.
“Oscar,” he said. Very quietly.
The eyes didn’t disappear. But the cat didn’t come out. It sat in the gap between the crates and the wall, staring at the torchlight. Geoffrey lowered the beam a little so he wouldn’t blind it. Then he sat down on the floor. Right on the concrete, not thinking about his clothes, not thinking about anything.
He just sat. And waited.
He didn’t know how much time passed.
It was cold. The concrete drew the warmth from his jacket, fast and steady. Geoffrey didn’t move. He held the torch to one side so the crack wasn’t completely dark, but not glaring into the cat’s eyes. Occasionally he spoke quietly. Not calling, not coaxing. Just talking, the way you talk when you need your voice to be nearby.
“It’s cold in here,” he said. “Five months. I never thought you’d be here.”
From the crack, no sound.
“I went everywhere. I drove to Builder Street at night. The garages—you don’t know. I filled the whole notebook.”
In the dark, the drip continued. The pipes hummed.
“At home, your bowl is still there. I never moved it.”
He heard a rustle before he saw the movement. The cat came out of the crack slowly. Not straight towards Geoffrey, but first to the side, along the crates, sniffing the air, stopping. Geoffrey didn’t move. He watched. The cat was thin. One flank was patchy, the fur hadn’t grown back in places. On one side of its face, the whiskers were shorter. The left side.
It was him.
The cat took another step. Then another. Then it walked up to Geoffrey’s leg and pressed its head against his knee. Once. As if checking. And stayed there.
Geoffrey didn’t lift his hand right away. He just sat. Then, carefully, slowly, he placed his palm on the cat’s head. Oscar didn’t pull away. He only closed his eyes, and there was something so simple in that motion that Geoffrey’s throat tightened.
He didn’t cry. He just sat on the cold concrete of his own building’s basement, his hand on the head of the cat he’d searched for five months. And the cat stood beside him, silent. He’d always been a quiet one.
Getting up was harder than sitting down.
His legs had gone numb, and Geoffrey rose slowly, steadying himself on the crates. Oscar stepped back a pace and watched. Geoffrey straightened up, stood for a moment. He’d read that cats could go feral, lose their trust in humans even after two weeks. And this was five months. Then he crouched again, this time on his haunches, and lifted the cat into his arms.
Oscar didn’t resist. He was light, much lighter than he’d been. Geoffrey held him against his chest and felt, under his palm, the small, quick beat of a heart.
They walked back to the exit along the same route. Past the camp bed, past the rusty bike, past the fuse box. Geoffrey held the torch in one hand, the other cradling the cat. Oscar didn’t move. Only once he shifted his paws, settling in, and then went still again.
At the door, Geoffrey stopped.
Then he pushed it open and stepped outside.
In the yard, it was morning. Grey January morning, no sun. Old snow lay packed, with black streaks along the path. Geoffrey squinted in the light.
He stood by the door, holding Oscar.
That was when Nina Stephens saw them.
At home, it was warm.
Geoffrey took off his shoes in the hallway without letting go of the cat. Then he set Oscar down gently, as if placing something fragile. The cat immediately lowered his nose to the floor and moved along the wall. Slowly, with pauses. He sniffed the baseboard, the corner, the leg of the side table. Checking.
Geoffrey stood and watched.
Oscar reached the kitchen. He stopped at the threshold, twitched an ear. Then he stepped inside. Geoffrey followed.
The bowl sat by the radiator, where it had always been. Empty, clean, a little dusty around the rim. The cat approached it, sniffed. Paused over it for a second. Then he moved away and sat beside the radiator, pressing his flank against the warm metal.
Geoffrey opened the fridge. Inside was some cooked chicken. He tore off a piece and set it in the bowl. His hands didn’t obey at first, the fingers still numb from the cold.
Oscar ate slowly. Not greedily like a hungry animal, but cautiously. Geoffrey sat on the floor next to him, back against the wall. He watched.
Oscar then walked through the entire flat. He checked every corner, every room, every windowsill. Then he went back to the living room, jumped onto the sofa, and curled up in the spot where he always used to sleep. Left of the cushion, by the armrest.
Geoffrey didn’t take his eyes off him.
Five months he’d searched, frozen at lamp posts, driven to strangers’ calls, walked with a torch between garages. And Oscar had been in the basement under the first entrance. Twenty metres from the door. What had he eaten? Mice, probably. How long would he have lasted, if by a stroke of luck Geoffrey hadn’t heard that faint meow?
He could have thought about it for a long time. But he didn’t.
He switched off the light in the hallway, walked into the living room, and sat on the sofa next to the cat. Oscar opened one eye, looked at him, and closed it again. Outside the window, the dark was settling.
Everyone was home.
