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Samantha noticed that Ian wore his finest shirt – the very same cream one they bought together last year for his birthday. And his new shoes.
Sarah saw that Ian had slipped into his finest shirt the very creamcoloured one theyd bought together a year ago for his birthday and his brandnew shoes. He even wore cufflinks, though on Sundays at home he usually strolled around in his housecoat.
Sarah, we need to talk, he said, standing by the window with his back to her.
She set her steaming mug of tea down slowly. Her heart thumped, not from fear but from a curious, humming anticipation.
Ian had clearly rehearsed this moment, as if it were a solemn ceremony. And then it struck her: he was waiting for tears, pleading, hysteria. Yet a strange calm washed over her instead.
I think its best we go our separate ways, he continued, not turning. We both understand that.
We understand? she repeated, surprised by the steadiness of her own voice, almost intrigued.
Ian finally faced her. Surprise etched his features she hadnt reacted the way he had imagined.
Well, were adults. Feelings have passed; why pretend?
Sarah slumped back into the armchair.
Twentytwo years of marriage. A grown son. The turbulent teen years, her own forties. And now, perhaps, the true beginning of her fifties.
What will I do? she asked, simply.
Um Ian hesitated. You could stay with Mary for a while, or rent somewhere. Ill help with the money at first.
Mary his sister, whod spent a lifetime thinking Sarah had wasted herself on him.
Help with the money. How generous.
And what about you?
I? He seemed taken aback by the reverse question. Nothing special. Maybe Ill sell the flat and buy something smaller.
The flat? Sarah tilted her head. This one?
Yes. And?
She rose and walked to the window. Ian instinctively stepped back.
Below, schoolchildren marched with backpacks the new academic year had begun. Life rolled on in its ordinary rhythm.
Ian, do you remember whose name is on the lease?
Its mine, of course. Why?
Yours? The hint of genuine surprise flickered in her tone. Are you sure?
For the first time in the conversation he looked genuinely puzzled.
Of course Im sure. We bought it ages ago with the money my mother gave me before we were married. Remember?
She had sold her council flat and heard, This is for your future. It had become, literally, for our future.
Ian fell silent.
We registered it in my name because you were unemployed then, searching for your calling. I needed a bank statement for a loan.
Do you recall now?
But we we agreed
We agreed it was ours together. It stayed that way until you decided to keep everything for yourself.
Sarah settled back into her chair, lifted the nowlukewarm tea, and took a sip.
You know, Ian, I just realised youre right. It really is time to part.
Do you? He brightened, a flicker of alarm crossing his eyes.
Yes. And if you want a fresh start, lets do it honourably. I stay in the flat its mine. You find a new place on your own, with your own money.
Sarah, we could negotiate something more humane
Isnt that humane already? She smiled. You want freedom youll have it, fullstop.
Ian sat opposite her. The onceproud shirt now seemed absurdly pointless.
But I have no money for a new flat
And I have no desire to keep supporting you. You said were adults.
I thought we could resolve everything peacefully
We will. No shouting, no drama. Each of us gets what we want. You wanted me to leave, so youll be the one packing. Is that unfair?
Sarah rose, coffee mug in hand, and drifted to the sink.
A delivery notification blinked on her phone the grocery order shed placed yesterday for today.
I need some time to think, Ian muttered.
Of course, she replied, setting the mug down gently. Just dont drag it out. My friends are arriving this evening; Id rather not host a family courtroom.
Ian slipped into the bedroom. She heard his voice, low and nervous, over the phone. She fetched the groceries and began chopping vegetables, her movements slow, almost meditative. Half an hour later he returned to the kitchen.
Sarah, maybe we rushed? Lets go over everything again.
What is there to discuss? She didnt look up from the cutting board. Youve decided. Ive agreed. All is fair.
But the flat we invested in it together. Renovations, furniture
Renovations? Sarah finally met his gaze. The work my father did with his own hands, free of charge?
Or the furniture I bought on my salary while you were still finding your path?
I always worked!
Yes, you worked. Yet your pay went straight to the household, while I kept the personal stash, as you once argued should exist for selfrespect.
Ian fell silent.
And you once said you werent ready for children, then when Andrew was born you feared fatherhood, yet now you brag about being a caring dad.
What does that have to do with anything?
It shows me something clear: you decided to leave not yesterday, not even last week, but sometime later.
Sarah set the knife down, turned to face him fully.
Tell me, Ian, does Olesa like the flat? Or are you planning something else?
His face went pale.
Olesa? Which Olesa?
The one youve been emailing for the past six months. The colleague whos been at your firm for eight years, childless but keen to settle down. Remember?
Youve been keeping tabs on me?
Why would I? You told me everything yourself. Remember that evening three weeks ago? You came home thrilled, bragging about the new coworker bright, ambitious. The next day you bought a new shirt.
Sarah wiped her hands on a towel.
And you started showering before work, switched to a nighttime routine, bought a new cologne, joined a gym after ten years.
Sarah
And now you even take your phone into the bath, smiling at the screen like a child.
A notification lit up on Ians smartwatch. He glanced at it, then quickly covered his wrist.
Is Olesa texting? Sarah asked, genuine curiosity in her tone.
Ian sank onto a chair.
I didnt plan
Plan what? To fall in love? To be caught?
It just happened. We were talking at work, then
And then you thought itd be easier if I left. The flat stays yours, your reputation stays intact.
The wife leaves, shes to blame. And with Olesa, he can start anew on a clean slate.
Sarah sat opposite him.
Its odd, she said, Im not angry at all. Im grateful. Youve shown me Im far stronger than I believed.
What will you do now?
Live. Here, in my flat. Finally pursue the dream Ive always had but never dared. Ill have time for myself.
And Andrew?
Andrew is twentyone. Hes an adult. Hell sort out his own parents dramas.
Ian stood, pacing the kitchen.
Sarah, could we work out some settlement? Im willing to pay compensation
For what? she asked, genuinely surprised.
For the flat, for the years together.
Ian, you want to buy my flat so you can bring a new girl in?
Not that blunt
Or what? Youre offering me money to become homeless?
Sarah laughed, genuinely, without spite.
Honestly, I might have agreed out of pity, thinking Hes a poor soul, not out of malice, just lovestruck. Id have gone to my sister and apologized for not keeping you.
She moved to the window.
Now I see you thought I was a convenient fool who would endure anything. Guess what? You were wrong.
So youre not leaving?
No. Youre the one who leaves. Today. Take only your personal belongings.
What if I refuse?
Sarah turned back to him, her eyes steady, the calm of someone who finally recognised her own power.
Then tomorrow Olesa will discover her lover isnt a free man but a married one. Shell also learn how you intended to solve the housing problem. Think thatll please her?
Ian stayed mute.
You have an hour, Sarah added. My friends arrive at five. Id prefer they dont witness a domestic theatre.
She grabbed a spray bottle from the sill and began misting the ferns.
The house fell quiet only the hiss of water and the occasional creak of floorboards under Ians shuffling feet as he gathered his things.
Sarah smiled at her beloved violet. Real life was only just beginning.
