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When I returned from the supermarket, a man I had never seen before was sitting on the bench outside my front door.
So, picture this: Id just got back from the shops, and theres this bloke sitting on the bench right outside my building. I swear, Ive never seen him before in my life. He’s holding this old brown envelope, sort of clutching it like it mattered. The second I get close, he looks up and asks, Are you Emily?
I stop dead. My shopping bag bumps against my knee, and I say, Yeah why?
He gets up slowly, maybe around fifty, grey in his hair and these tired eyes that made him seem older. Ive been looking for you for two days, he says.
My hearts pounding now. What for?
He hands me the envelope and says, This belongs to you. Its heavier than I expected. I open it carefully and find an old photograph inside.
It’s me. So much younger. Im standing at a bus stop, holding a book, backpack slung over one shoulder. I remember that daynearly twenty years ago now.
I ask him, Where did you get this? and he gives me the kind of sad smile you can feel.
From my brother, he says.
My stomach twists. I dont have a brother.
No not yours, he continues. He points to the photo. My brother took this of you. I sit down on the bench because suddenly the world feels a bit wobbly.
Why? I ask.
He replies, Because he was in love with you back then.
We sit there quietly. You can hear cars from the road and some distant barking.
I never met him, I say softly.
You did, he insists.
When? I wonder aloud.
He sits beside me and says, He used to wait at that same bus stop every morning.
I try to recallcold mornings, people holding take-away coffees, buses rolling in. Was there someone in a dark jacket with a camera? he asks. And it clicks. There was a man who always stood just to the side, sometimes reading the paper, sometimes just watching people go by.
Yeah I whisper.
He nods, That was him.
I look at the photo again. Why give this to me now?
Hes quiet for a moment. My brother passed away last week.
I squeeze the photo in my hands. And he left this?
Yes, he replies, then pulls something else from the envelopea small note. I unfold it. The handwriting is neat, careful.
If you ever find her, tell her she was the most beautiful thing I saw every morning.
My eyes fill up with tears. You know, sometimes we walk past people who change our liveswithout even knowing, without remembering them. I look at the man next to me and ask, Why didnt he ever talk to me?
He gives me that sad smile again. He thought you were too happyhe didnt want to bother you.
We sit in silence. Im holding the photo, trying to remember his facebut I just can’t. And sometimes, the strangest feeling is realising you were someones memory without ever knowing it.
Tell me honestlyif you found out someone cared about you for years, quietly, would you want to know sooner?
