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‘You Had a Baby at Nearly 50—What Were You Thinking?’ My Family Shouted Through the Phone

**Diary Entry**
*5th June, 2023*
“Had a baby at nearly 50what were you thinking?” Thats all I heard from my family when I called to share the news.
Im 46 now. A month ago, I gave birth to twinsa boy named Arthur and a girl named Eleanor. Words cant describe what I feel when I look at them. Pure joy, tears, warmthits overwhelming, honestly.
Yet, no one came. Not my mother, not my sister. Even my husbands relatives ignored the birth. All because of our age.
I never thought much about children when I was young. Life was carefreeclubbing, cocktails, flirting, nights out. What more could a girl want? My heart sang with happiness.
At 22, I met Oliver. Handsome, bearded, glasses, sharp wit. Women flocked to him, but he chose me. I wont lieit boosted my confidence. He had it alla flat, a car, a family business. His parents owned several clothing shops in London, made good money.
I thought he was my knight in shining armour. My ticket to an easy life. I dreamed of a fairytale wedding, a honeymoon in Egypt.
But for Oliver, it was just a fling. After a month, he changed the locks while I was getting my nails done. Tossed my things out like rubbish. His only explanation? “Were from different worlds. Youre not the one.” As if I were a mismatched shoe!
The breakup wrecked me. Lost two stone, hair fell outI wore wigs for months. My health suffered. The sudden weight loss messed with my hormones. Surgeries, medications, even herbal remediesnothing worked.
So, I focused on my career. Always loved nails, so I trained as a manicurist. Built a steady clientele, saved up, bought a small flat in Manchester. Later, a car. At 33, I opened my own salon. Hired a few young lasses to help.
Then, two years ago, I met Daniel. Worked nearby. Popped in one day to break a twenty-pound note. That was itI fell hard. We moved in quickly, married soon after. Kids? Of course, we tried. But time wasnt on our side. So, we turned to IVF. I prayed every night*just one child, let me be a mother.*
And God listened. Two healthy babies, an easy birth.
But the phone calls? “Have you lost your mind? Kids at your age?” from my mother. “Good Lord, Ill be a grandmother soon, and youre playing mum?” from my sister.
Not a single relative supported us. At the hospital, only Daniel and a photographer waited. We took a few keepsake shots and drove home.
A month on, my mother and sister still refuse to visit. Say Ive shamed them. That a woman my age has no right to motherhood.
But is it really a crime to want a family? To love these little souls with everything Ive got?
Maybe theyll understand one day. Or maybe they wont. Either way, Ive learned thishappiness isnt found in others approval. Its in the quiet moments, rocking my babies to sleep, knowing I fought for this. And for them, Id do it all again.
