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Little HandbagLittle Handbag sat on the park bench, waiting for her owner to return from the café across the street.
My wife Annie told me this story after she came home. She had just sat down on a free bench, having made sure it was clean enough that not a single speck of dust could threaten her light-coloured dress. In her hands was a new white handbag. At the health spa it had become a habit, after dinner, to put on one of her smarter outfits and go out for a walk. Most of the guests did the same. One woman admitted: “Where else can you show off your dresses? At home there’s nowhere to go.”
Out of the corner of her eye she saw George walk up and sit unhurriedly beside her. “Let’s be quiet together,” he said in a low, rather intense voice; it matched the calm and the beautiful landscape. Under his beige jacket he wore a white shirt, his trousers were perfectly pressed, and his dark hair looked as if he had just stepped out of a barber’s. The grey at his temples, like silver, did him no harm at all; if anything, it made him look confident and solid.
Annie had noticed two days earlier that when they met, he looked at her in a special way, picking her out from the other ladies.
“That’s a lovely way to put it: let’s be quiet together,” she said, pleased by the phrase.
“With you, Annie, even silence is pleasant, though I’m always glad to talk.” George half-turned toward her so that he could give her his full attention. He had liked Annie from the first time he saw her.
She turned to George as well, returning his warm look.
“By the way, I expected you at the dance last night, but you didn’t come. Don’t you like dancing?”
“Not at all—I do like dancing, but yesterday I went walking. The evening air is so fresh; you want to keep breathing it in.”
“I didn’t know you enjoyed evening walks.” George touched Annie’s hand in a movement barely noticeable. She felt a light tingle from the touch. His brown eyes looked at her with hope for more.
“Then let me invite you out this evening on a private walk along a route I discovered myself. The view is magnificent—the hills are clearly visible. I had no one to share the beauty with… and now I do: you.” He gave her hand a little squeeze, as if sending a signal for the persistent courtship that would follow.
“Why not?” Annie thought. “It’s only a walk. And going far by yourself is risky; if there’s a man beside you, it’s safer.” She looked at a couple passing by their bench—a man and a woman talking eagerly, clearly people who had met here at the spa and were now enjoying one another’s company.
“What a pretty hand you have, Annie,” George whispered rather than said. He moved even closer, admiring her profile.
She had no wish to ask whether he was married. As a rule, most of the people here were married, and they excused their little flirtations with the desire for novelty and new impressions. Just then it felt wonderfully pleasant to sit on a bench with a man who clearly liked her and had chosen her above everyone else.
“Come on, let’s walk now,” George suggested. “We’ll talk, and this evening I’ll take you to the café.” He offered Annie his hand and helped her up.
Without any hesitation she agreed, and, picking up her white handbag, took George’s arm. After about five steps she swung the bag carelessly, like a girl, and let it slip from her hand. It fell into a small puddle left over from the rain. Annie gave a little gasp, startled by the contrast: a snow-white bag lying in the mud.
“No harm done; it’ll be as good as new,” George said. He picked up the bag and set it on the grass. Annie took out some tissues and began to wipe it, but cloudy smears were still there.
“I’ll wash it properly in my room,” she said.
“Then I’ll wait for you,” George offered. “Or better still—and now he had moved to a more familiar tone—“I’ll meet you after dinner on this same bench… All right?”
She nodded and hurried back to her room, holding the bag out at arm’s length so she wouldn’t get dirty. She washed the new white handbag she had bought specially before coming to the spa. All traces of dirt seemed to be gone, and yet the bag still seemed somehow soiled, robbed of its newness.
She remembered George’s invitation for the evening walk, his look that hinted at something more, and she felt an unpleasant aftertaste. For the whole week it was the first time she had felt something disagreeable, something that irritated even her. She suddenly compared her relationship with George—at first glance completely harmless—with the handbag that had fallen in the mud.
The phone rang. “Mum, Dennis and Archie won’t let me do my homework!” she heard her younger daughter’s voice and the sound of laughter.
“What are you lot doing there?” Annie asked, as if returning to reality.
“Annie, it’s me,” came her husband’s voice. “I brought the grandchildren over; we decided to bake a pie, but Daisy says no, we’ll mess up the whole kitchen.”
“Andrew, you could buy the children something tasty from the shop, and I’ll bake a pie when I get back—maybe even a cake.”
“Come home soon; we all miss you,” Andrew said. Then, more quietly, “And I miss you most of all. I’ll get in the car right now and come and get you, if you like.”
“It won’t be long now—be patient. I miss you too. Put Daisy on.”
After she had talked to her daughter and then to the grandchildren, and had told her husband she loved him, she realised she was late for dinner. She changed quickly, picked up her handbag, turned it over in her hands and made sure there was not a drop of mud left on it. “Now that’s better,” she said to herself, in good spirits. And she certainly didn’t need to run off on a walk with some George or other—that much she understood clearly, comparing the handbag that had fallen in the mud with their budding relationship.
Annie felt how much she missed her husband, her children and her grandchildren… She had gone away to take a rest from them, and now she was glad to hear their voices, and she would have been glad to see her husband in the kitchen, trying to bake a pie for the grandchildren. She remembered how Andrew had tried to surprise her with a culinary masterpiece on Mother’s Day—it had been touching and funny, his clumsy efforts. Funny, but so sweet and joyful.
“I won’t take the bus,” she decided. “I’ll tell Andrew to come for me when my stay is over, and I’ll show him what beautiful places these are. We’ll walk together. And we certainly don’t need any ‘dirty handbag.’”She let the thought settle like clean linen in the sun, then picked up the phone again. She called Andrew’s number, her fingers moving on their own, as if they had remembered something her heart had been slow to admit.
“Hello?” His voice was a little breathless, still surrounded by the cheerful noise of the grandchildren.
“I’ve changed my mind,” Annie said softly. “Come get me now. Not after my stay is over. Tonight.”
A pause. Then she heard the smile in his voice. “Then I’m already halfway there.”
She laughed, a small surprised laugh that made the last of the unpleasant aftertaste dissolve. She looked out the window at the hills, now brushed with amber and violet in the declining sun. The view was magnificent, just as George had said. But she no longer wanted to share it with a stranger who made her feel like a new bag that had to stay spotless. She wanted the man who would walk beside her through puddles and flour and all the sweet, clumsy mess of real life.
She touched the white handbag once more, then placed it calmly on the bed. “You’ll stay clean there,” she murmured, “and so will I.”
The evening light stretched across the room as she went downstairs to wait. Outside, George was still by the café, but she didn’t meet his eyes. She simply walked to the blue car that had just pulled into the drive, its headlights warm and bright.
Andrew rolled down the window, his tie askew, and for a moment he just looked at her. “You’re early,” he said.
“I missed you,” she said simply.
He opened the door, stepped out, and took her hands in his. There was a smudge of flour on his cheek. She kissed it away, tasting something true and familiar—not an adventure, but home.
“Show me the hills?” she asked.
“I’ll show you everything,” he said.
And as the car wound up the quiet roads, Annie leaned her head against his shoulder, white handbag resting safely on her lap like a promise she intended to keep. No mud. No second guesses. Just two people who had found each other long ago and were still finding each other, every day.
That was the real journey. And it had the best view of all.
